[pinkneon]

Hey there!
I am new here so not really sure what to say! From browsing this site I feel a bit left out as most of you seem to be from USA and I am in the UK (even though apparently I use a lot of American words?!) ... So anyway, I was in foster care as a baby, with my older brother, and eventually 2 little sisters came to join us - though they didn't always live with us.
When I was 4 years old the 4 of us were adopted together. We were 2,3,4 and 6. This placement wasn't really the best of placements. The adoptive mother died when I was 10. The placement eventually broke down when I was 16 and my sisters and I were placed back into foster care (my brother was 18 by then). We'd been abused a lot in the adoptive placement, though this was mainly due to the adoptive family not being checked out thoroughly enough (my suspicion being because he was a doctor and she a social worker and therefore very highly regarded).
Anyway, in December 2010 I had a baby girl. She was 5 weeks early but was beautiful. During my pregnancy I had considered adoption on more than one occasion, but when she was born I changed my mind.
However circumstances were against me and now, at 13months old, my beautiful little girl is going to be adopted.
I am extremely sad about it, as here in the UK adoptions are closed and you have contact via letters, unless it is decided when the child is older that face-to-face contact would be appropriate. Although she hasn't been adopted yet, she will be very soon. I have a final contact with her on January 31st which I am not looking forward to!
I am now 23 and have no family support. I moved away from my family about 5 years ago to start a new life and get away from bad memories. None of my friends have ever been in this situation either, so I feel like I am going through this all alone so I hope I am hoping that I will make some new friends here who are going through the same thing, and who I can share my journey with ...

[wcurry66]

welcome pinkneon!

If you haven't made your way over to birth mothers support area, i strongly recommend it. they are a great group of ladies