[SusanD60]

Hi all. I wanted to thank you all for all your kind words and support, but I've decided to give up searching. The searching was consuming me. I need to get on with my life. I thank my birthmother whoever she is for giving me life. She could of aborted me and she didn't. I have 2 wonderful daughters and I am going to wrap myself around them and devote my time and efforts on them. I have shed to many tears and have spent too many hours on this computer. It is time for me to grow up and enjoy what is left of my life. Granted, yes I am only 47, but age doesn't mean anything. But this hoping and searching is not living. To start fresh my family and I are going on a trip. What better place to restart my "childhood", and life but Disney World. I wish you all luck with your searchs and dreams. I wish you all peace and love. Who knows maybe many years down the road when my daughters are all grown and out of the house I will search and see if I have some siblings from my birthmother.
Take care,
Susan I'll tell Mickey you all said "HI".

[KaseyHamnerM.S.]

thanks for posting. Searching is not for everybody. Good luck, it sounds like you have a great life.

kasey

[Missy M]

I am so sorry that you didn't get the info you were seeking; best wishes in your future. BTW: My daughter and I were reunited 2 years ago and she has just decided that she no longer wants to focus on being an "adoptee." she wants to go back to the days before reunion when she was simply Tovia...she is tired of "fact gathering" and meeting related strangers; I am tired of "walking on eggshells" and dealing with all the "what if's" and if you'd have....
My point is that reunion is NOT a cure-all; its a wonderful thing discovering that the child I placed is alive and reasonably well, healthy and was well raised. Just because we;re related doesn't mean we'll be instant friends or ever friends. We respect each other and in a distant way we really love each other, but we have no desire to have daily/ weekly / monthly or even yearly interaction.
Good Luck and tell Mickey hello! MissyM

[kpace]

Your words touched my heart. I understand the energy it requires to perform a search. Your heart is dangling with anticipation and fear. I also have two children that do not understand what I am trying to accomplish. My son (6) told me yesterday that I love my real mom more than him. It was like a slap in the face. I have put them aside and have focused all of my energy until I am completely consumed. I have only been searching for a short period, but am coming close to answers. The reason I am succeeding is because I am following the trail my mom started back in '98. I can't even imagine the agony she must have felt all of these years. The anticipation is overwhelming. I wish you luck and peace. I hope my mother didn't give up completely on me, but found security that her info was out ther when my heart would be ready to discover it. God bless and have fun at Disney Land.

[MISSY777]

iam coming to that point in my life and i have a 3 year old son and i dont like him seeing me go though this stuff..i hated knowing i cant find her but i guess she didnt what she wanted to to do and didnt care about us and just wanted sex and drug and every man in the plant so iam going to end mine really soon...