[Gili]

And then one day, your heart finally breaks
It wasn't the surgeries or the hospital visits or the endless appointments or scary prognoses or brain damage or medication and home treatments and wondering how to tell him that being a fire-fighter is most likely not a viable career option. It was the other day, when DD took "The Day We Met You" off the shelf and left me reading it to DS after she lost interest. It's a super-peppy adoption book all about how the sun shone the day we met, and how we and the grandparents bought all these different things to keep the new baby warm and fed and happy. When we got to the picture of the teddy bear, DS noticed the ribbons from the gift wrap. All he could see was hospital tubing, which is how he interpreted the image. Not the ribbons, not the bow, not the teddy bear. He asked, "Is that a test?"

He was referring, as he does pretty much daily, to a horrific procedure he underwent in March. We just have to wait it out and hope he "gets over it." But I can't even see MYSELF getting over it.

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He is the most wonderful boy in the whole world and he just doesn't deserve this. I know there are other people on here who feel the same way about their kids...

[mrsred]

aw, Gili. The good news is that he is there with you to even see this book. I pray for healing for both him and you.

[Gili]

You're right! I do count my blessings :-)

[Lylac]

Aww Big hugs Gili!! It's hard to see our lil ones like this. For a very long time, and even sometimes now L pretends momma taking babies to the doctor or hospital. And all of her babies are sick

[aspenhall]

Not to hijack the thread....but that would be so cute....to play going to the hospital...

...because my dd had severe constipation for the first few months and pretty much refused to go #2 at all....so the doc instructed us to give her an enema.....which didn't go over so well with dd...

and for WEEKS all her dolls/animals were all "sunny side up" lined up on the table 24/7 as she repeatedly gave them their enemas (with her toy dr kit shot thing).....and told whoever asked, precisely what she was doing....I wish she'd been a bit more generic! lol

Sorry to hear it still affects him...can you get those ribbons on a stick and do dances with them so that when he sees it he associates it better with joyous things?