[peaceful1]

Hi, I'm an adult adoptee and new to this support group, seeking my first contact with my bmother. I'm 30+ years old and have always had her name and the basic info about her and her relatives. She had never told my bfather that she was pregnant, and she was young and single. I knew I wanted to make contact with her some day, but I never knew when the "right" time would be, or the "right" words to say. Then, I prayed about it and put it in GOD's hands, and all of a sudden I was given all the info I could ever want, with her current phone#, mailing address, and email address. My aparents are both now deceased and I haven't really talked about my adoption very much with anyone. It wasn't a secret or anything, I just never spent much time dealing with this important issue in my life. I am filled with a mixture of feelings that must be normal, like: anxiety, fear, happiness, gratitude, worry, and courage, all at the same time. I took my chances, and sent my first email to her on Valentine's Day this month. It was an ecard with personal message to let her know I was ok and very thankful for her giving me the precious gift of life. Now that I have my own family and know how much my own children have filled my heart with all the love in the world, I wanted her to know that I feel so blessed of her decision to bring me into this world. Now, I am waiting for a response from her, but tring not to have any expectations or be upset if she never responds. At least I have made an effort and can have peace knowing I have done my part.