[Jackiejdajda]

tweg1

So still waiting and hoping.I have no idea what he is thinking or feeling about the whole reunion. One day at a time (except the One day seems like such a long day)

I am so sorry you are going through this.. I hope and pray he will contact you soon..

Jackie

God, grant me the Serenity
To accept the things I cannot change...
Courage to change the things I can,
And Wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it.

Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His will.
That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen.

Attributed to Reinhold Neibuhr

[tweg1]

Well this past weekend it has been a year for me that I have had my b-sons a-name and his a-parents address. It took six+ months until I actualy got to talk to him on the phone (very short conversation) then two very short F2F and one voice message. During that year and even now I am checking the caller ID every time I leave and come home again. Hoping to hear from him. I know I am suppose to take it slow "One Day At A Time" and I am TRYING But it is hard. Are there any ideas on how often to try to call ( the phone that is his girlfriends says the voice message is full so did he ever get a message), did he get any letters since the first one in July hmmm... How often is it OK to send a letter when all there is is silence? What are the rules? Do I just wait for him to call or write? I don't think he will write but I did enclose a stamped self addressed envelope and hope maybe he will do that. I think I know the answer but need some encouragement. I just want to know that all he is doing is taking it slow. The not knowing is the hardest part.

I kept him in my heart in a little box and meeting him now the box is open

[tweg1]

On Thanksgiving day my bson called. I have heard nothing from him since the beginning of August.He sounded so up beat and happy. I have been waiting and hoping to hear from him.So Why am I sad. I felt so sad after his call and it has taken me two days and many tears to get to today (Sunday) I should be elated. I have been hoping beyond hope to hear from him and then I do and I feel so very sad? Any ideas?

[-maggie]

twig1, Congrats on talking with your son on Thanksgiving! I am so happy for you!

As a birthmom, I have had similar reactions. It is very surpising when your emotions are the exact opposite of what you expected! I don't understand it and hopefully someone here can explain.....

I just wanted to send you a big hug and let you know that you are not alone. Hang in there!

[cetalley]

[quote=tweg1]On Thanksgiving day my bson called. I have heard nothing from him since the beginning of August.He sounded so up beat and happy. I have been waiting and hoping to hear from him.So Why am I sad. I felt so sad after his call and it has taken me two days and many tears to get to today (Sunday) I should be elated.

I have been hoping beyond hope to hear from him and then I do and I feel so very sad? Any ideas?[/

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TWEG1, Congrats on your reunion! I am still searching, so I have no personal experience with what you are dealing with. Life,in and unto, itself is a roller coaster..ups, downs, sharp corners, slowing, stalling, running backwards, and then suddenly coming to a full stop. This is WITHOUT drugs. You must try to stop worrying, until HE meets you ALONE and explains his journey and the whys , of what he is dealing with. All you have hoped for is right there, but it must go slow, and with both of you on the same page(so to speak). The hoildays are upon us, and I so despise the theory of what has become CHRISTmas.....but it ALWAYS reminds ME of what this season is REALLY about. Try to take some time to enjoy what you have and what you have recieved, he is not going anywhere, and neither are you. You are a wonderful, lucky Mom to have found him, and you will do just fine, as will he...just have a little more patience. I send this with PEACE and SERENITY...