[lost-ina-lonelyworld]

hello all,
I posted the below post about writing contact letter and decided a new post is what I need for all the new problems in my life... I found out that my b-father passed away a few years ago while my mother kept the secret... I got the heartbreaking letter back from the estate attorney... I asked her years ago since I knew there was some sort of secret and he was still alive but she insisted on keeping bs family secrets... part of me wants to just write her off but, shes already in her 60's and when it really gets down to it, it's hard to write off family... and when I try to explain how I feel she seems to say the worst possible things: "you are not the only adopted person", "let's just be a happy family", "you don't know how hard it was for me".
I don't care that I'm not the only one... it sucks bad enough for me to have to go thru this... it sucks he's dead and I'm left on my own to figure all this bs out in my head and heart, F being a happy family, I'm pissed off, I don't care how hard it is for you... you don't know how hard it is for me... you've had 30 years to deal with this...
the 2nd issue is trying to contact my b-father's son... the JR. trying to write a letter... trying to make sense of nonsense bs family secrets.... Hi, I'm not crazy or anything... I think we're related... can you tell me about your life... your and who I was told my deceased father... ugh... I hate these emotions and the stupid places long standing family secrets... has anybody else gone thru this... I know I'm not the only one... did I mention this sucks... it's good that I can contact family I never knew about but it's very akward...

[Jackiejdajda]

I say keep trying..

Jackie

[Dickons]

Contact your brother...I think it is easier to deal with the fact that dad had a child out of wedlock than it is to think of their mom having a child out of wedlock...

I would call rather than write but have a list in front of you to refer to as what you need to say.

Kind regards,
Dickons