[needle/haystack]

I am a maternal birth sister searching for my older sister that was relinquished (by force) by my mother that was just fifteen at the time.

I want all adoptees to know you may have siblings out there that you are not even aware that you have....searching and wondering and caring about you. This was not something any of us ever asked for or wish on anyone, but I do have to say I feel blessed to know that I do have a sister out there somewhere.

Even if I never find her, I know that the events that followed her birth and adoption, eventually led to my birth.
I pray every day that my sister was adopted by a loving family that was able to provide her with all of the nessesities in life that, at the time our mother never would have been able to provide for her.

As I grow older and learn more and more about my mothers painful past, I appreciate my life more and more, and I have come to a better understanding of what an extraordinary woman she is to have overcome all the obsticles in her life and still maintain her sanity.

She shed tears with me over the abuse she suffered and the painful day she had to part with her baby, practically a baby herself. She prays daily that my sister has a loving family that stands by her and that she is a happy, well rounded individual.

Although I am not an adoptee myself, I appreciate the fact that there are so many loving adoptive parents out there I and pray that that is exactly what my sister has.

Kimberely, I love you and I owe you so much, more then you'll ever know, I hope you can forgive our mother for letting you go...she wasn't given the option to keep you. If it were possible, I know she would have. She would have given her life for you. Thats the kind of woman she was and still is. That is why she is not actively searching for you, she does not want to upset the life you have with your adoptive family.
She has told me before that if you needed to find her she would be willing to talk, and meet you, but she wanted to leave that decision to you. I guess I am searching for my own curiousities...but if I know you don't want contact I will respect your decision.
I just want you to know that we do care that is why I search.

Maternal bsister in search of
kimberley Johnston(e)
date of birth April 1965
Ontario, Canada

[jrainbow]

I'm an adoptee, also born in an unwed mothers home in the closed era whose bmom was a teenager. I have never blamed my bmom for giving me to a loving family, for giving me what she believed would be a better life. I was always told by my aparents that my bmom was just not in the right place to parent me and so, because she loved me, she gave me to them. They spoke of bmom with respect and gratitude for her gift. I always understood the circumstances. As a matter of fact, the primary reason I wanted to find her was to tell her she had done the right thing - I had a great life with parents who loved me just as their own.

I hope that your bsister had the same kind of life. Good luck on finding her. I'm in reunion now, and it has so added to my life. Both my aparents are gone now. I almost feel that my bparents gave me to my aparents, when they were too young to parent, and now my aparents have passed the baton to my bparents - a kind of strange feeling for an adult with grown kids of her own.