[lin2458]

Hi Everyone And where do I start ...
I guess by saying first I am a Birth mom and the daughter I gave up is now 30 years old ....When I was 15 years old I found myself alone scared and pregnent and know where to turn in the whole time that I was pregnent I told know one until the day I gave birth and even then my parents went out of town with the rest on my siblings well needless to say on August 13 1974 at the age of 16 I gave birth to a healthy baby girl that I called ( Marie )I went to the hosiptal and that is when my Aunt found out and could not understand why I never even told her and she was more like my best friend in the whole world ..But once again I was so scared and just didn't want to believe this was really happening to me ... Well needless to say my Aunt had to call my parents where they and they came running home to find me in a hospital with a new baby girl I can remember like it was yesterday my mother and farther walkin into my hospital room and my father sitting on the bed with me crying and my mother walking right passed me to the window looking and saying to me you are 16 you WILL NOT keep this baby I cried and cried but it didn't matter what I was feeling all she worried about was what people were going to think and say and I guess back in the old school thats how it was ...Well you know what no matter what time frame it was she was mine and I don't think anyone has the right to take someone elses life from another person she was mine and in my heart will always be my little girl even though she is now 30 years and a women her self she will still be my little girl ...For years I thought and wondered where she is and if she was ok and being treated right and does she have a loving family do they hurt her or do they love her the way I know I would of I did a lot of crying in my life and it is always in my heart on where she is and what if she was here with me what life be like to have her in my heart my soul and my whole world ... Its so hard to love someone so much that you don't even know but she was a part of me and that there gives such a stronge bond that know one can every take away from me I would always sit and wonder how her first day of school was did she like was she scared when she was sick did they do all the right things for her when did she learn to ride her first bike when did she say her first words even her first steps these are things I know I will never get to see again ... But I will never say I won't even get to hear about them things ...Now it all changers and so much has been answered ... Back in March of this year 2004 I recieved a call but it was one of them calls being caught like a deer in the headlights... I picked up the phone and hear words that I thought I would never in my life hear..The women on the other end asked me if my name was Linda so and so and I said yes went on to say did I put up a baby for adoptions in 74 I got so scared I just said know and hung up I didn't know what to do now ... So as time what on when this lady called I had gotten the number off of my called ID and I tried all ways to track this number down but could not find out anything and I didn't want to call the number because I was scared so I had a third party call for me it was not my daughter but the adopted Mom looking for me for my Adopted Daughter well needless to say me and the adopted mom and adopted father email each other all the time and they are great people I know now that when my little girl was growing up she was loved and treated so well and I can rest now knowing all that the adopted mom sent me pictures on my little girl from when she was 2 months old up until now and I have sent pics of me when I was little and up till now and they cannot believe how much she looks just like me I have not yet talked to my adopted Daughter yet because she is not ready for that stage but did give the ok for the parents to send me her pics and to tell me all about her it has been I guess like 6 or 7 months now that I have been emailing back and forth the adopted parents ..I really want to be able to talk to my Birth Daughter I know she says she is not ready yet and its been months now but I don't want to be to pushy and run the away I lost her once I don't want to lose her again I can tell you I am so much at ease knowing that she is healthy and happy and that is so much lifted off my shoulders but I do hope that some day she will be albe to talk to me and I know when we do we will be great friends ...Some times I feel that I just want her now want to meet her want to get to know her but the time will come and I hope it is soon because I thonk its been long enough now I don't know wht to do I do have her Email address it was sent to me by her adopted father by mistake and he don't know I have it so I just don't what to use it and do things behide there backs but being so close and having a way to get in touch with her but can't it makes it so much harder ... Well i thonk I went on and on enough and I don't want to bore anyone but need to let my story out ... Its just a day that I never in my life time thought would ever happen and now that it is happening I want it all and I want to be able to talk to her and let her that it was not me that wanted any of what happen to happen .....Thanks to all that listened ..........

[hprestonalexand]

Oh my gosh, what a story. How amazing is that, that your birth daughters adopted mother was calling you.
I can't even emagine how you felt at that moment and now she has kids, oh how wonderful
I wish you the very very best here in the future with your reunion. Take it slow and cherish everything.
I am so happy for you to hear of this happy outcome!
Please take care and keep us updated on how your reunion is going.
I am an adoptee ISO my birth mother. I pray to have your happiness someday.
Take care

[snuffie]

Oh I am soo happy for you! Your story made my day. It always makes me feel so good to hear that birth moms do think about us. It is so wonderful that your daughters amom contacted you. What a special person she must be. And having the adopted parents so willing to get to know you and to share pictures with you will make your reunion so much easier.
Reunion is a very scary thing. It opens up emotions that may have been lying deep under the surface. It takes time and patience. The best reunions are the ones that develop slowly. If you have her email maybe you could ask her adopted father if you could use it? Maybe make a joke of it like "oops I think I wasn't supposed to have this but..." Or maybe just let your daughter choose her own pace.
One of these days she will be ready!
Best wishes and please keep us posted!

[sherrykimball]

I found myself crying from reading your story if only more aparnets were like your daughter I'm so happy for you maybe shes reading the e-mails that you write to her aparnets lots and lots of happyish

[lin2458]

Thank you for carin and one thing we are doing is taking all nice and slow