[ZoeHvs]

It's not as if i hate getting older, but it's very emotional at times. I find myself not wanting any gifts, or wanting to really wanting to "celebrate" in a way that is. I ache, yet I hope she knows I think of her and I know she thinks of me. It's almost like I feel her pain. I love her - i do! What she did I know wasn't her true decision. Sometimes we have to do what we have to do at the time. I know.
I guess I want to know if anyone else has the same feelings around this time. My brithday is 10-18-71, & I'll be 33. I know you're out there. I know I have 2 siblings at the time of my birth from my father, and a sister on my bmoms side. What can I say, it's a love for a family I feel I can never fully express. Fillled with love is what I am, and at some times it sucks.
GOD BLESS TO ALL!!
I WILL NEVER LOSE FAITH!

[l-thompson]

Zoe - I know as the years progressed and each birthday came and went I wondered if I would ever have the answers.... I wondered if I ever would find my birthmother, had she ever thought of me on my birthday, or at Christmas time...

As my 40th birthday loomed ahead I had pretty much given up hope of ever knowing.......three months before I turned 40 I got a phone call from my case worker...she had found my birthother, birthfather, a sister and two brothers. It was overwhelming...now I finally had my questions answered.

Don't you ever lose faith Zoe, hang in there and maybe one day you can actually share that love with your birthfamily in person.
Good Luck.

[ZoeHvs]

Thank you for the reply. WHAT A BIRTHDAY PRESENT! I've just experienced tears of hope , and I so needed to be here right now reading your reply. Today was just "one of those days", and I bless you with all of my heart. I refuse to loose faith, yet I'm scared.