[Automne27]

One year ago today my boyfriend and I lived through the most devastating day of our lives. My beautiful son fell asleep in his arms in the lobby of our hotel in Moscow, never to awaken again. This happened the night before we were bringing Ethan home to begin his new life in the US. It took my former agency nearly 4 grief filled months to reveal to me that cystic fibrosis had claimed his life, and that he had not had a chance.

I wanted to take a moment here to honor his short life and allow me to express the immense amount of joy and love that he brought to my life in the short time that I was blessed with the privilege of being his mother.

In Memory

This is a dedication to my dear sweet son Ethan Nuristam
Who made me believe that I really could love someone more than myself
Who gave me a reason to wake up with joy in my heart
Who looked deep in my eyes and wordlessly told me how much he loved me
Who held on until I could come back and get him despite his pain
Who is resting on the other side of the world all alone
Who is the first thing on my mind in the morning and the last thing at night
Who had me wrapped around his finger despite my insistence that this would never happen
Who watches over me each day and gives me strength
Who is my angel in Heaven who will lead me to his brother
Who I will one day join and hold again for the rest of our days
I Miss You

[votemom]

thank you for sharing a picture of your gorgeous son.

i am so very sorry for your loss.

[Sally26]

Ethan the story of your life will always be an inspiration. You were a brave, loving boy.

Ethan's Mom,
I have thought of you so often and prayed for you. Thank you for posting and sharing your love for Ethan. You both are an inspiration of strength and love.
I'm so encouraged to see that you are adopting again. I'm sure Ethan is smiling down from heaven on you and is so happy you are willing to share you love with another little boy.
I pray God blesses you and continues to heal your heart where there is both joy and sorrow from the brief time you had with Ethan,
Sincerely,

[angelkisses0102]

I think about you often and have followed your journey to Guatemala...Thank you ever so much for sharing your beautiful son with us. You are a very special Mommy to two very special little boys...blessings to you.

[E.Case]

I agree with the above posters and send my sincerest best wishes to Automne and the new baby.

Ethan's story haunted us for a variety of reasons. His death hit close to home.

Automne, I'm proud to see you moved forward and are now giving an opportunity to another child to know a mother's love. Like the one lady said here, Ethan is smiling down upon you in Heaven.

Blessings
Elizabeth

[Vicki H]

Thank you for sharing the picture of Ethan, what a beautiful boy.
I wish you all the best in the adoption of your beautiful son.

Vicki

[Kendal]

Your heartbreak had touched me deeply. Thank you so much for your post, and your beautiful poem. He was a beautiful boy. May God Bless You.

[mikiment]

I remember so well the heartbreak of your story, and have thought of you so often and said a little prayer. So glad to see you are moving on in your parenting journey while continuing to honor the beautiful memory of Ethan, and the short but incredibly precious time you had together. What a special and beautiful child he was! He will always be your special angel, and I know will continue to live in your heart and memory.

Thanks for sharing, and best wishes and prayers for your continued success and healing as you move forward. God bless.

[mikeintexas]

What a wonderful tribute to a precious little boy. Thank you for your courage. It touches my heart. I have thought of you often the past year, praying and hoping that you would find peace. I give thanks that you did not give up on the adoption journey. God bless you, Ethan, and your family.
Mike

[Animalcrackers]

I too remember the heartbreak of your story and I am so touched by your tribute. Thank you for sharing it with us. He was a beautiful baby. May God bless you and your beautiful sons.

[waitinginnj]

Your story is amazing. As painful as Ethan's loss was, how blessed he was to be loved.

I am so thrilled that you were able to move on and are in the process of welcoming a second son into your heart and home.

May your lives be joyful.

[britfish]

What a beautiful tribute to such a brave and wonderful little boy. I have thought of you often and wondered how you were doing. I am so glad you are in the process again and I will keep you and darling little Ethan in my prayers.

[aimeemk]

I remember too your story. I have often thought and prayed about you. I did not know you were moving on in the adoption process, so thank you for sharing. What a beautiful way to honor Ethan's memory.

You have really touched my heart.

God's blessings to you,
aimee

[Shay]

I also remember your story and my heart goes out to you and your family. I will keep you in my prayers....that little one is shining down from heaven as an angel!!!


HUGS!!!

[Kasey]

I am so sorry for your loss, my heart goes out to your family. Thank you for sharing your story and your son.
Warmest regards,