[kretzklan]

The ramblings of a woman on the edge:

Have you ever realized that it is 4 pm and you still have your pajamas on?

Have you ever realized that you haven't showered in two days?

Have you ever had the phone ring and been REALLY upset that it was your best friend calling to go to lunch?

Have you ever been cleaning the tub and laid down in it to cry (ruined a good pair of pjs that day)?

Have you ever had someone say "how are you?" and you start crying - and the person asking was the check out girl at Kings Soopers?

Have you ever walked to the mailbox and realized you didn't have on pants (yes, it happened...thank heavens for long tee shirts)?

Have you ever seen a child in a store and realized they were the same age/gender as the one you are waiting on and followed them so long you looked like a stalker?

Have you ever laughed and thought "wow, I hadn't done that in awhile"?

Have you ever known that your heart already belonged to someone you haven't even met?

For all those sad and crazy times...I do have a sane part of my brain that says "It's OK...it will happen"...lately that part of my brain has been smaller and smaller!

Have you ever sent a message out into space because you just felt very alone?

[spitzlvr]

You aren't alone.

I like the mailbox one - my dh did something similar while we were on vacation (he had boxers on). He left the hotel to get something outside, came back in and commented people were looking at me. I turned around and said "Counld it be because you just went out in your underwear?"

[thmc1215]

I sure wish you lived in my neck of the woods. I could use a pal that is feeling the same way I am right now! I can honestly say that I've done most of the things on your lists and all within the last couple of weeks!

I'm praying you'll get your travel dates very, VERY soon! Sending lots of ((((HUGS)))) your way (and also another pair of pjs)!!

http://images.picsearch.com/is?4961196232644

[digianna]

I can honestly say I feel your pain. Though I haven't even received a referral it is a daily struggle to wait and hope. I'm so glad I have found this site and am able to share with the members.

[RainyInGA]

I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes, not knowing whether to laugh or cry! Im still IN my PAJAMAS & its 4:15!!!
dont tell!

[RainyInGA]

PS just saw your avatar Thmc are you in GA?? go DAWGS!

[kretzklan]

Today I actually took off my PJ pants and Tee shirt and changed into.....ready.....drumroll please.....



A tee shirt and sweat pants!!!!!

I'll probably sleep in this tonight...it's just so easy!

[Kendal]

I can seriously remember during our long wait of trip one and two, my huband asking me if I planned on showering anytime soon Does a dip in the pool not count for something? The wait is terrible, and little can be said or done to make it any easier. But do know you are not alone. We all are rooting for you (and all of you other waiters). It will happen and when it does you see the world in a whole new way

ps. I am going to have to chime in with a ROOOLLLL TIDE I've got a feeling we will be meeting up soon!

[susan1326]

Oh, how I can relate! How about having a serious lapse in short-term memory because every brain cell is wrapped around the adoption? Our little guy turns 4 on Nov. 21, and we sure were hoping he'd be home for his birthday.

[susan1326]

And on another topic...Go Gators! Big weekend coming up, Dawg fans!

[emjay]

Hang in there, and I hope you get to travel soon.

And then I can't wait to see the post where you are doing some of the same things, but for the happy reason that you're chasing 2 kids!

- Maura

[spaypets]

I sympathize. I actually took to my bed while waiting for a referral (my dog was dying too). It didn't help, so I got up and got on with life.

[tbristow]

I remember worrying that I had actually lost my mind. I remember becoming so obsessed that I spent almost all my waking hours on the computer researching Russia or here on the boards. I remember the "how are you" becoming such a big deal that people didn't ask anymore. I remember curling up on the floor of my son's room with his blanket and just losing it completely (interestingly enough it was 4 days before the call came). I remember the horrible sinking feeling in my stomach as I watched St. Petersburg disappear beneath me knowing that my son was down there. I remember crying as I put his Christmas presents up in his room (we were SO sure he would be home)...and of course, we all run for the tv whenever we hear any mention of Russia on the news.

I feel for all of you, I really do. It is SO hard in all the waiting stages. Each one seems to get worse. Try to remember all the happy endings. Some take longer than others, but that brown-eyed, sandy haired little boy sleeping downstairs in his spaceship blanket sleeper with his blankie was well worth every minute of that wait.

Cyberhugs to all of you in the waiting process. We'd be right back in there with you if we could afford it....

[LilyMoon]

Rainy....that cartoon is just too funny.! I had to print it out and hang it up.

Kretzklan....great post. I'm sure we all can relate. I love this one -

"Have you ever seen a child in a store and realized they were the same age/gender as the one you are waiting on and followed them so long you looked like a stalker?"

This was definitely me before I brought my daughter home! LOL!

Thanks for making me laugh,
LilyMoon

[erickk]

Well just buy yourself a pair of these and make a fashion statement (and then there is not that bothersome problem about putting on pants OR shoes ) :
http://www.jumpinjammerz.com/pics/3513.jpg

But I know how you feel too. Happy news at the front of the week for me and no news at the end. I really thought we would get our referral this week.

I am so sorry for your wait. I swear I am going to grind my teeth down to nubs from grinding them so much. The MOE of our region has been out over a month and no one seems to know for sure what is wrong with her, if she will return, if someone else is going to do her work. Frustating since we know our child is now off the database and waiting to be referred to us.

I'm definitely feeling the one step forward, 10 steps back feeling today. You have to be a little insane during this process to remain sane. I hope you get some good news soon. In the meantime, check out those jammies!