[smalls86]

This never bothered me before until all of a sudden just recently i grew extremly curious of my birth mother. and now i'm in this impossible search to find the answers to my past. i know absoultly nothing about her, except that she gave birth to me and left me at a door step. this past week all i have been doing it wondering how much i look like her and what traits she has passed onto me. there is so much that i dont know about myself, that i want to be filled in on. like why did she leave me? who is my father? did she even love me? do i ever cross her mind? i just wish someone could tell me something. it makes me really sad that i dont know anyting aboyt my past. its just weird though, cause all these feelings jsut hit me out of no where. i was never so curious up until now...

[Pink6763]

hello smalls86,

I wish I had the answers to your questions. I hope you find your answers soon. Good luck in your search!

I hope you don't mind me asking how old you are?

I can tell you I am a birthmom who has been reunited with their birthson back in Aug. I can also tell you, I thought of him often. Holidays and his birthday was especially hard. Always hoped he was happy, safe and loved.

Best wishes to you,
Pinky

[smalls86]

Originally Posted by Pink6763

hello smalls86,

I wish I had the answers to your questions. I hope you find your answers soon. Good luck in your search!

I hope you don't mind me asking how old you are?

I can tell you I am a birthmom who has been reunited with their birthson back in Aug. I can also tell you, I thought of him often. Holidays and his birthday was especially hard. Always hoped he was happy, safe and loved.

Best wishes to you,
Pinky

i just turned 18 in november....i hope my birthmom is like you and thinks of me

[snuffie]

Hi
I can relate so much to all of your questions. It is so difficult not knowing anything about where we come from. There is such a large vacant spot inside of us.
For most of my life every day when I looked in the mirror I wonder where the face that stared back at me came from. I don't know what brings these feelings to the surface. It could be someones comment about something we don't know such as health history, a TV program about adoption or reunion. Who knows. But they are common feelings to most of us here.
From reading other posts here and speaking with other bmoms who are friends of mine - I have learned that they always think of us. Your bmom may have been a very frightened young lady who didn't know what else to do and felt that she was giving you a much better life than she could provide.
Was there a note left with you? Was there a newspaper article about you? What is in your adoption file? Was there an investigation and what was found?
These are just some questions that came to mind. Maybe registering on as many adoption search and reunion sites as you can may help you find your bmom.
I wish I could be of more help.

Hugs
Snuffie