[Celtic-Angel]

MM,

I am sure that this is going to sound like a highly scattered mess of words, please bare with me through the confusion and misspelled words. At this time, I will not go into the long drawn out story and will try to make short and sweet.

On Yule as I was preparing for the Blessed day of new beginings, I sat at my computer to get the final touches on my ritual and other things done. Well I got a message from my 15yr old son that shattered my heart once again. This has been going on for some time. He wants nothing to do with me, called me his favorite names for me again (FB), told me once again how much of a terrible mother I have been to him over the last few years.. I could continue, though the bottome line is his request for his father's second wife to adopt him.

I can not handle my heart being shattered every couple of months, just about the time I think I have started to pick the pieces back up and put them back. The emotional roller coaster is driving me crazy. Just about the time I think him and I are starting to get along again,, WHAM!!!! I have agreed to allow the adoption to go through with no contest from me.

So now here I sit, a couple of days went past with hurt and then the anger set in.. Now I have started to unleash the anger on my friends around me that have no idea what is going on, nor do I want them to know as most are new friends and I do not feel that they need to know. Our friendship is only just a couple of months old.. I do not want someone just out of the blue asking how the adoption is going, or if I have gotten the papers yet..

I also have a 20yr old daughter who has given two beautiful grand babies and has 2 other children from a new found relationship... she has called me everyday to check on me... she is wonderful..

I guess I just need some good advice as to how to deal with the emotions.. I never thought I would be here.. I am even having issues doing my meditations, and that has always been the one thing to calm and center me... and now my ex has taken that from me, yes most of my anger is directed towards him.. Yes I know all about the "anger".. (breathing, breathing... breathing... breathing is my friend.. ) I am sooo trying though to know that this is all because of minds games and the extent that the ex's family has gone to play them... OK I really hope that I have not over stepped any rules here.. sorry if I have.. maybe a private email from someone may be neeeded..

I am seriously I guess in need of a support group in my area.. and some major meditations.. been working on it.. Anyone have some suggestions for this highly emotional, unbalanced Priestess.. needing to be myself again..

Be Safe
Namaste
Angel

[musemoon]

Whenever I am in turmoil with someone in my life I use my meditations to talk with them. First I address the anger and speak it with them, the release the anger to peace and forgiveness. While it is not with the actual person it does help me find peace.

Blessings and prayers for peace.

[Celtic-Angel]

Musemoon,

What a blessing to have come into your life as the two angels (this goes for everyone who may read this). Thank you for your words of encouragement as I continue to work on my meditation. I will make it through as I know this is just another step in my journey.

Namaste
Angel

[GoddessDanu]

Something you could do to get rid of the hurt feelings you have surrounding your son's adoption is to do a cleansing/healing bath once a week. I would recommend Fridays. I will IM you the recipe.

Blessings.

[sheababy]

Well I could see why you are angry! Sorry-I hope things will get better for you. In the mean time try some exercise-perhaps a punching bag

I hate to exercise but it does help to release some anger.