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Old 12-29-2006, 08:31 PM
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Question Birthparents, whether in a closed or open adoption; aren't we all the same????

I just wanted to see how segregated these two really are. I had never knew much about open adoption until I found this site and it has been very eye opening. It does seem to me though that the two seem very segregated, and I just want to know, aren't we all going through the same grieving processes. I know that with an open adoption bparents still have some sort of connection there. Even with that connection, I would think that there is at least some form of loss or grief. I am not jealous, by no means, even if I had known before of open adoption, I don't think I would have been able to have dealt with seeing my bchild after the papers were signed. My main question is just this, in the end when the papers are signed, aren't we all still in need of support as BIRTHPARENTS?
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Old 12-29-2006, 08:50 PM
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I think it's hard to say anything concrete about any group of people, there are always circumstances that makes one story different from another but in general I agree with the overall thought and agree, post-adoption, we could all use some support!

IMHO one of the biggest difference is that in a typical closed adoption the birthparents never know if the children are dead or alive, so when the adoption occurs some often grieve as though the child hass passed away. Where as in some modern day open adoption birthparents may either have visits or photos so at least they know the kids are alive....and if they have visits these parents also have the chance to meet their children or even be a part of their lives...but I'm sure that too has it's own issues.

I do however subscribe to the thinking that were are all the same, we are all human beings, we all hurt, love and yearn for support just like anyone else does

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Old 12-29-2006, 09:50 PM
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I never considered a difference in the grieving process for us. I always thought that since we are birthparents then we all go through the grieving process. It may be alittle different but we all have to deal with the effects of signing that paper.
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Old 12-30-2006, 06:54 AM
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One would assume. But I haven't felt welcomed at all recently by those in closed adoptions. Or, a select few. Or something. Just because I know where my daughter is and I see her doesn't mean I don't grieve and I'm tired of being told that I have it easy and therefore I have nothing to contribute.
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Old 12-30-2006, 08:28 AM
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The reality of it is that we all grieve, open, closed, whatever its hard and some days even in a closed adoption I am ok. I enjoy talking to Bmoms who are in Open Adoptions, I live vicariously through them, yet I know they still have their pain. I think we are all looking for the same thing, Support, even when you cant relate, just knowing that even though we are on different paths we still have the same common reason for being here.
So in answer to your question, no 2 people are alike, but we as bparents do share a common bond.
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Old 12-30-2006, 01:43 PM
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Most of you know my situation, and I kinda feel trapped in the middle, so to speak. I don't consider myself in a closed situation because I always knew where the family was, and who they were, and the offer was on the table for contact. We have contact for a period of time but for years I did not keep in touch, and have had no contact with my birthdaughter. I now get pictures and updates from a -mom, but not on a regular basis and nothing between DD and I. So I would say it's not exactly open either.

I find things in common with all of the birthmothers I have met, we all have the same feelings of love and loss for our children. Just for different reasons and under different circumstances. I have also through this forum found similarities between my feelings and those of adoptive moms and adoptees. I have even found similar emotions in common with mothers who divorce, and sadly those who have lost their children to death.

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Old 12-30-2006, 03:28 PM
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I worry a bit sometimes, because I tend to post all over the boards, when I see a thread I relate to in some way. I'm not always sure my point of view will be welcomed because I'm not from the "right" side of the triad for the thread.

I was recently (today) thinking about starting a thread for birth/first mothers in reunion and the similarities with first mothers in open adoptions.

After 33 years of not knowing, I found that my firstborn son is very much alive - and interested in a relationship. With that, my life changed. Now the challenge is to negotiate the minefield of this new relationship. Just like birthparents in an open adoption, I am not the custodial parent. (Not that a 33 yr old has a custodian - other than his wife! LOL) I am not the mother who raised him. I can answer his questions, be there for him, love him (as always). I can't tell him what to do in the way my mother said to me: "When I'm 70 and you're 50, I'll still be your mother and I'll still tell you what to do." (S can, although he may choose to ignore her!)

In some ways, Jenna, I feel some of what you express when you have a visit with Munchkin coming up: excited, nervous, insecure. While we are older, our relationship is still very new. In some ways we're in the smae place in our relationship except that in my case it's D who decides the amount of contact while in yours it's the parents. At the same time I love the way the contact enriches all our lives... all my children and grandchildren now have more siblings and niece/nephews and cousins etc. The fact that part of them call me Kathy and the rest Mom or Nana doesn't really matter.

I sometimes envy those who have experienced open adoption for two reasons. The first of course is because they get periodic updates on their children. (I cherish the pictures of D as a child that have been shared with me since reunion.) The second is that I admire (envy) the ability to spend time and deal with the grief of not parenting/ walking away each time. I'm truly not sure I could have/ would have chosen a fully open adoption if I'd had that option.

As has been noted by others, while we may experience apparently identical situations, all of us are unique and so none of us will ever have an identical experience of being a birth/first parent.

Jenna, I'm sorry you have felt unwelcome. It seems to me that the strength of these forums is that we support one another.
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Honestly - no we aren't the same. Our experiences are different, the social climate we placed in is different and therefore I think the way we grieve is different. We need to remember that we can learn from each other's experiences and that we can be great supports for each other. But, no one's pain is greater or grief is worse, it's just different.
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Honestly - no we aren't the same. Our experiences are different, the social climate we placed in is different and therefore I think the way we grieve is different. We need to remember that we can learn from each other's experiences and that we can be great supports for each other. But, no one's pain is greater or grief is worse, it's just different.
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I didn't mean that we are all the same, what I meant was that we are all birthparents dealing with grief in some way. I do realise we are NOT the same, but I am still learning here and wanted a little insight from all sides. I have been made to feel and have tried to make others feel that I am open to all sides and all opinions of the triad. It was just a question that I was pondering, not intended to ruffle anyones feathers or point fingers. We are all different and we are all going through different situations. I came here for support and answers and to find a place I "belonged", like so many others before me and all the ones that will come after. Thank YOU to EVERYONE, for your honesty and for your insight! God Bless.
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Old 12-30-2006, 09:22 PM
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Katlyn - just to clarify my post was not in reference to anything anyone had posted here, just my thoughts on the subject. I'm sorry that my post came across as if I were angry or upset by the question. Certainly I am not - it takes alot for me to get angry or upset - don't worry.
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I have to say that I feel very fortunate that I am in an open adoption. Because it is so open, I know my son's parents. I have come to love them. And I feel so blessed that I will still be able to see him on occasion (I'll get to fly up for his baptism in a couple months... meet all his aunts and uncles and cousins) and get to see how he's living, growing, thriving. Yes, I did grieve. I do grieve. But I wouldn't have it any other way!

And I also have to add.... that no matter what the cirsumstance of the adoption are... we, as birthparents, are all in need of positive support, regardless of how open or closed it is. Lack of support and negative support can be nothing but destructive.
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