[MyCatharsis]

I don't know where to post so I pick everywhere I think you will look. You were born in New Mexico but the adoption went through in New York. I lived in Chicago but the type of adoption wasn't legal in 1985-1986 so I had to stay with my mother in New Mexico until I had you.
I won't give up looking. It's all I have. Posting words here hoping one day against all hope that you will look. I cannot believe its been 23 years since I held you, fed you, soothed your crying and dried your tears. I can never get that back, I know this, but is it too much to ask the powers that be, to just let me have you back in our lives again? You have a real family that is blood to you. You have a full sister and me and your father are still together. I'm not saying that your Afamily is not your family but I'm sure you must have enough love in your heart to spread it over two families. So, I will just wait as I've done until I hear from you. I just wanted you to know in case you are looking and you are aware that you're adopted to not be scared to contact me. Please...or just PM and ask for your sister's email if you are freaked out by the thought of contacting your father and me. I'll give it to you without hesistation.
Your sister said at your age you probably starting partying early in the week and wont stop til tomorrow. LOL, I hope that isn't true. She just turned 21 and she isn't like that but we both think you may take after your Dad in that aspect. It's all speculation on our parts. So, happy birthday angel boy. I love you so much.