[crawfolf]

Hi, My name is Laura Frances "Williams" Crawford. I had a daughter that was born at Bethesda Naval Hospital in Bethesda, Maryland on April 26, 1982. I had to give her up under the wrong situation, but that is another story. Anyway, I was told that the family that had adopted her was also in the service. I was told they were in the Marine Corpe and I was also in the Marine Corpe stationed at Arlington, Virginia at the time that I had gotten pregnant with my daughter. Her father was also in the Marine Corpe stationed at the same base. I was just a L/Cpl at the time and a single parent because her father did not want to have anything to do with her. I had alot of friends who tried to help me out but it was just not enough for me to be able to keep my my daughter. I just hope she will understand and forgive me someday. I didnot want to give up my daughter, I wanted to try and raise her on my own but it was so hard for me to work 12hrs. a day in the Marines and spend the other 12 trying to make sure she was well taken care of. I was totally worn out by the end of the day. My daughter was my whole world at the time and I am truely sorry that I was not a better mom to her. I gave it all I had that was inside of me and I failed terribly. I hope that the family that adopted her was able to give her alot more than I could have ever given her. The only thing that they cannot give her is all the love I have for her that is locked away deep in my heart and my soul. I will always love my daughter until the day I die. She is always with me day and night. I think of nothing else and it just consume me sometimes that no one can get to me. I have two other children and I forget that they need me too. I love all my children and they are all apart of me that will always grow deep in my heart. I was always afraid after losing April that if I have anymore children that the state would take them away from me too because I failed so bad with her. My daughter's name I forgot to mention is April Nicole Williams. That was the name that I gave her when she was born in the hospital. I don't know for sure that they changed her name but my councelor in Virginia said that they did. I hope that she reads this and knows that I am always searching for her and that I have loved her and missed her for the last 21 yrs. I know she is 22 yrs. old now and that shecould get to her files if she wanted to and I hope that she does so she can find me. I want my daughter to find me and I want to be able to find her. She is and always will be my "China Doll". Well I've said to much already, so I had better go. May god be with you always and look over you until we meet again.