[lisa5by5]

A mirror that looks back at me, but the only thing I see is me, no memory of my mother, just one question, who is she and where can she be.I was born I believe in Brooklyn N.Y. 1/1/69 . My mother name may have been Linda kaye Berry, or Linda K Rowell.I think that she was originally from Statesville, North Carolina.I was adopted in weschester county, through the Louise Wise Angency, out of Manhattan.The agency has since closed and I really have no place else to turn.I just need a direction that lead to sometime anything at this point.I'm completely lost at this point, and not just in my search,even in my life.How is that you can need someone you never knew. In 40 years I have never lived.I do a good job at hiding, but not living.I have limited funds do to a disability, so if anyone can just point in a directions that maybe will help me obtain information,you really would be helping in saving a life that seriously lost,and hurt, confused.Besides I can't cry anymore all cried out.Just looking for answers to anything that can help me feel like i'm a part of something or someone.

[KittyMay]

Lisa, I hope that you will consider some type of counseling. If you are on disability, your Medicare should pay for one. It seems like you need someone to reach out to. As for having limited funds, have you tried social networking sites like Myspace, Facebook, etc? Does your state have an adoption registry? You can also look up people at Zabasearch.com for free. One other option is Intelius.com it allows you to search by maiden name. They do charge a fee for the information, but I've found that it is relatively small compared to other sites. The Mormon church also has a vast geneology database with access to the Social Security Index and most of their services are free to my knowledge. Their web site is FamilySearch.org. I hope this helps a bit. There are also Search Angels on this website who offer free assistance. I believe you'd find the category under Search and Reunion.

I understand your feeling of being lost. I didn't know how lost I was until I reunited with my bfamily after almost 50 years. But you have to be prepared for what you find. Can you handle it if it is a cold reception? Are you basing your entire future happiness on something that is an unknown? As lost as I was, and yes I needed to hug my bmom and I did and still can't figure out why I get the urge to just want to curl up next to her at times, I was an emotional wreck at times early in the reunion. It's a rollercoaster, even the good reunions and you have to be ready for that. I wish you all the best and please keep everyone updated.
Kitty

[KittyMay]

Lisa,
In reading another post I found this out:

" I learned that an active agency today named Spence-Chapin in NY has the old records form Louise Wise!!" this is an actual qoute from another member on this board. Hope it helps