[ChristiBender]

I do understand the wanting to bring it all together... for me that happened when I got to have my bdad and my bmom together with me and my honey. That was a neat, neat day..... There is a picture of all of us on my website....

To be able to live IN THE MOMENT... and allow the future to unfold as it will - it is a huge gift, eh?

I am glad that you are "ok"....and that things are all conspiring to pull for you having a complete life - instead of a splintered one.

I think that is a lot of what reunion is about... the healing and the knowledge - they smooth out a lot of our rough edges.

[aura]

Reunion is about healing and knowledge and I know for me I am a stronger person. I don't usually "let people in", I am a very private person and my search and reunion has changed me for the better. I decided early on in my search, and once I found this forum, that I was going to be very public about my search and whatever came with that, the good and the bad. I had so many wonderful people help me along the way and I have made some wonderful friends here and my hope in being so public with my search is I want to help someone on their journey. If I can help someone, even one person, as much as I was helped then it is all worth it. This is truely the roller coaster ride of your life and it helps so much to have other people from the triad to talk to, people that understand what you are going through. The search part of this journey comes with it's own set of emotions and struggles and we wonder if we will survive it and then, for those of us who are lucky enough, we enter reunion and for me, that was when the hard work really began. It comes with a whole new set of emotions and struggles and with that we gain knowledge about ourselves and our birthparents and about a time we do not know, the time of our birth. And from that knowledge we begin to heal, and for each of us that is different. For me, I realized that my bmom is not who I am but why I am, she is why I am here and part of my looks and my manurisms. I am who I am because of my parents and the way I was raised. Does that make sense? This whole process is a learning experience and I learn more about myself everyday, we learn from each other too. I personally am glad that I have had each and everyone of you with me on my journey, you all have been a source of support and encouragement and some of you have become my good friends. I value all I have learned from you and all I will learn. Thanks for all your support and help and I hope I can return it someday by being there for you in your journey!

[Janet Heath]

Aura,

That was very well said. We that became your friends are honored.


Janet

[mrosey]

You have already given me so many gifts. When I speak of you to my local friends I say my friend Aura. The girls already know you!!!! You have become a part of my life and I consider you a dear friend. I agree with everything you are saying abou the search and reunion. With the good and the bad has come something that is worth all of it. Peace. Inner peace.

I'm hoping and praying that in the next few weeks we can share Janet's next phase of her journey. I look at the pics of her birthparents everyday. I only hope that the circle can be closed. They look like wonderful souls and the fact that we haven gotten to know their daughter, well, it just feels like we need to find her birthmom. Does anyone know what I'm trying so desperately to convey????

Michele
xo

[ChristiBender]

Aura.... I love the way you said what you said. I always say this is a search for self... and you said it in all the ways it has been for you. Thank you for being so "public"!!!

Janet.... I have been watching you for months.... you seem to be moving forward (albeit at a snail's pace sometimes)...and like Michele wishes.... I too hope that your search takes a turn soon. How are you FEELING these days?

[aura]

Janet, I am also honored, you have helped so much. I do know what Mrosey is trying to say and I feel it also. I hope and pray that your bmom will be able to hear your voice and see your face one day, that she will embrace you because you are a wonderful person with a great spirit. My life is better having you as a friend.


Mrosey, you just about made me cry hon. I too refer to you as a friend and like I said to Janet my life is so much brighter with you in it. My husband hears about all of you! No matter what happens with our reunions we hold on to that peace and it is so precious! I do understand what you are saying about Janet and her bmom, and I agree, my wish for her and her bmom is that they can close that circle too.

Christi, thanks for all your words on encouragement and support. And thank you for sharing your story with us too, we all have different journeys but yet, without each other to help along the way, I wonder if we all would be where we are at now? I somehow don't think so. I know you have all been a safe sounding board for me, even when I was angry or hurt I had a place to come to where my friends are, friends who would understand. We may not always agree with each other but we understand each other and that makes this wonderful!

Have a beautiful day everyone!

[Janet Heath]

Aura, that was so sweet. Thank you so much for the encouragement. It is having friends like you to reach out to because we are all in the same boat just in a different phase of the journey.

Christi, thank you. Yes, sometimes things move really slow and even stop. I think things are fixing to pick up speed here.


Janet

[Janet Heath]

Michele, thank you so much for the encouragement and support. I hope that there is joy at the end of this phase in my journey.


Janet

[mrosey]

No need to thank me. I really want this for you.

Michele

[Janet Heath]

Michele,

You are sooo sweet.



God Bless You,

Janet

[ChristiBender]

Janet.... I got up and logged onto the computer hoping that something would have "broken free" since yesterday.

ARGH.

Fingers are cramping.. but still crossed for you.

[Janet Heath]

Christi, thank you for checking in on me. I was halfway hoping that maybe I would hear from my new CI by now. I called the Chief CI Saturday and left a message, upon receiving a letter stating how much money that I owed and final statement made out by first CI, to let her know that I was dropping a check in the mail to her on Monday and that she should get it Thursday and no later than Friday. Apparently she isn't going to hand over the file to the new CI until she sees my check.

Janet

[aura]

Hi Janet,

Keeping my fingers crossed and my eyes heaven bound for you hon~you are in my prayers!


Happy Valentines Day Everyone!

[Janet Heath]

Aura,

Thank you so much, sweetie.


Janet

[aura]

Your welcome hon! Nothing new here, haven't heard from Jenny in a few days so we will see what happens! Maybe I was too honest with her. You think you are doing the hard work with the search, the hard work really begins when you hit the reunion stage!