[Janet Heath]

Hi, Aura,

Vacation was good. It was cut a little short due to Wilma. Nothing new really. Talked to CI last Wednesday. She sent a letter restricted certified to bmom, but was non-deliverable and is still sitting at the post office as of last Wednesday. CI is getting closer to finding bdad but hasn't pinpointed where he is at yet. Haven't heard back from the CI but she assured me she would call me before I leave for vacation again just to touch base even if there is nothing new going on. Am leaving Saturday on a Caribbean cruise for a week. Then we will be through vacationing for the year.
I hope that when I get back, you will have some good news for us. I know that it gets to be overwhelming at times.


Janet

[aura]

Hi everyone,

Well, here we go again! I was at work today and a friend of mine came in, he has access to records that I don't and I told him what was going on in my life and with the search for my b-mom and he called me about an hour ago...he found her current address as of 4 weeks ago, she is here in Great Falls, at a new address, my husband went by and her car is there! My friend gave me a discription of her, fits my non-id info to a T, guess she hasn't changed much! I am sending out the letter Thursday, sending it so she has to sign for it so I know she gets it. I don't know if I am scared or excited or what. I am afraid to get my hopes up but I know we have her this time, no doubts! I have been assured that she is safe to contact by my friend also! I just wanted to update everyone, my thoughts are kind of scattered at the moment guys, sorry! Please keep me in your prayers, I don't think I can handle another "bottom of the rollercoaster ride" guys! I hope all of you are well! Miss you guys! Aura YIKES!!!!!

[MKW]

Aura - so good to "see" you here! I so hope your b-mom will respond. How thrilling that she is right there, and you're about as positive as you can be that you have the right woman. You sure have friends in high places to help you with all this info. Good for you! Please let us know what happens!

Janet - is there anything new with you and your searches?

MKW

[Janet Heath]

MKW,

Thanks for asking. CI sent a letter certified to bmom stating that she had a personal matter to discuss but letter came back. There isn't much else she can do there except send the forms to be filled out for accepting or denying contact. She says she will wait to do that when she is out of town sometime. CI is still waiting on information to come back on bdad. She says that they take there sweet old time sometimes. Also trying to get information on a baby born before me but died. Bmom had a baby prematurely due to a car accident the year before I was born but it died 2 days later according to my hospital records. CI says my case is pretty complicated and the folder is quite large that she has on me. Am hoping something will break before the year is out. Appears that bdad has been married a few times and has 3 children but as to where he is at is still a mystery. The hope is that the information will give the CI what she needs to finally find bdad and perhaps answer some questions about bmom.


Janet

[aura]

Just wanted to let everyone know that the letter has been mailed! This is in God's hands now, I just sent it regular mail. I hope she recieves the letter and not someone else and I hope she takes the letter well. I mean her no harm and I don't want to hurt her. I have to believe that she has thought of me in the last 33 years and will be happy to hear from me, or at least relieved that I am okay. I cried when I mailed the letter, cried for her and for me and for my b-dad and for my a-parents who I am sure, especially my mom who although has stood by me through all this has to be scared on some level what this might bring. This is out of my hands now, and please, I need your prayers and so do both my moms! Thank you everyone for everything! Aura

[MKW]

Aura - I will keep praying that your b-mom will be receptive and open to your letter. Your tears only speak of your open heart, and how much all this means to you. Please - let us know when and if you hear something. We're all still here with you.

Love you, MK

[aura]

Thanks MKW,

You always know what to say! I finished the letter to my birthdad, I will post it later in my journal, or maybe here on the thread. No news from birthmom but it's only been 2 days, she will probably get it Monday for sure! Wendy, where and how are you hon? You have been in my thoughts hon! How is your search going? Janet, Hi, it's good to hear from you, how are things going? I'm glad to hear your vacation was a good one, you deserve it hon! I hope all is well with everyone. I will post the letter later when my little one is down for a nap. Thanks everyone for the prayers and good thoughts and for the wonderful support, it helps to know you are all waiting with me! Aura

[krielly]

Aura,

I'll be thinking of ya too!!!!!!! Hang in there. Lord knows we could all write a book on patience..............Seems like all we do is wait......

Hugs
Karen

[Janet Heath]

Aura, Please keep us posted. I hope you hear something from your bmom this week.

MKW, Thanks for asking. How are things with you and your bmom?

Karen, you hit the nail on the head. Yes, we do a lot of waiting. It can be downright frustrating sometimes when things are not in our control and all we can do is wait. But waiting is a big part of this on going saga of search and reunion.



Janet

[mrosey]

Aura

you will be in my thoughts and prayers all day. Try to breathe. I was in your spot exactly one month ago yesterday. No matter what happens, you have let her know how you feel. Please keep us posted!

mrosey
xo

[MKW]

Aura - how has today been? Hang in there.

Janet - I'm sorry - I lost your thread asking me how things were going! So far, so good. My "Mom's" schedule is getting pretty hectic and so is mine. But we're going to try and get together soon - hopefully a couple times before Christmas.

MK

[aura]

Hey everyone,

Thanks for the support guys. I haven't heard anything yet today, she should have gotten it today. She is less than a mile from me so I would think tommorow at the latest. This waiting thing is hard, I am trying to keep busy but it keeps creaping up on me today, I even went to work for some overtime just to keep busy! (now that's desperate! LOL) I just hope she responds! I would like to say that I am okay with whatever happens, and I know I will have to be, but there is a part of me, the part with my heart included that wants to hear from her. I want to see her face and at least know who she is. I think the hardest part is that this is out of my hands now, I have no control over what happens and that stinks!!! Plus, I have set myself up to get really hurt here and that really terrifies me, I am a private person! I will post the letter to Lucky (birthdad) in my journal after dinner. The lady that runs the home he is in is such an angel, she is going to read him the letter tommorow. I emailed it to her tonight! I hope he finds some peace now, I pray that he does! That's what I want for all of us, my b-mom and b-dad and myself and even my a-parents is peace in our hearts that everything and everyone is okay. I just hope that comes true! Thanks for the prayers everyone, I am trying to give this to God I just need to quit taking it back! Love all of ya! Aura

[aura]

I posted the letter to my birthdad in my journal, it's there if you would like to read it. I have to go for now, this is too much for today everyone! I will dry my tears and try to sleep, God bless all of you! Aura

[anifish]

aura this is still in gods hands,, I am still thinking of you. You are still wrapped up in his arms dont froget it ok ,,,,,, pm me if you need anything, I know this is hard I had to wait a few extra days do not give up! it will be ok either way,, and let me tell you this,,,,this reunion stuff is not that easy,, 4 days into it, I am facing problems already. I am wishing I could go back a few days. I wrote in my journal about this being like a funnel cloud, and it so describes this whole thing. The whole process is one big funnel cloud that we get caught into and get thrown back out of, then get whirled back into it and I do not know if it will ever dwindle to nothing but a calm peacefull beeze. It'll be ok ,,,

ani

[aura]

No news today! She should have gotten it by now, I keep expecting it to show up in my mailbox "returned" or "not at this address". I guess I am losing hope, I know it's only been a few days but if she were excited to hear from me I think she would've called by now. I don't know, just been down in the dumps lately and patience isn't in my vocabulary I suppose. Time will tell! Aura