[redion]

i am so over whelmed by my feelings of love and such a powerfull need to be with my daughter.we where reunited only a year.34 years of not knowing.
she has 2 beautifull daughters.
i don't want to be over protective.
we are 1000 miles apart,i need an outlet for these feelings and try to understand.

[bajohnson]

Congratulations on finding your daughter and your grandchildren!
The feelings you are having are totally normal. I am not yet reunited, but have been around here long enough to have heard tales of reunion. There are some GREAT birthmoms on this site that will share your story and help you through this!
Again, Congratulations!
Beth

[radiodoll]

I'm laughing WITH you, not AT you!

"feelings........"

I laugh because I know EXACTLY what that's like to have all of this stuff whacking around in your head and heart.

I always hear the "Feelings" song in my head and visualize a smokey, loud, abd piano bar with a tacky lounge singer...

ya know??? LOL

I'm with ya - just keep posting and talking it out with people.

_xxoo Radiodoll

[redion]

i have read so many stories about good and bad reunions.
ours is very good.i am the mother she has always yearned for.
i had almost lost hope ,then one day 34 years later i get an email. i knew it was her by her email name.the name she was given at birth.
she did not have a happy life with her a-parents.
the biggest problem is that she lives in the us and i in canada.1000 miles apart.
i have told her how i feel and she feels the same.
what is happening is that i am all consumed by her and my new family.i can think of nothing else.all i want to do is be with her.
she was in a bad car accident and is suffering a lot of pain.
i think of nothing else but trying to comfort her.
i am up early each morning just to check my email and if i don't get a letter i just panic.wondering if all is okay.
in a split second i would leave evry thing behind and move there.
i have never had such a strong connection with anyone.i have 2 other children and i love them dearly,but not as much as my 1st born.
i was forced to give her up for adoption and she truly understands why.
how can i cope with these feelings of desperation?

[redion]

i went to the states in early january and our reunion was so perfect.i did not want to leave.
we have almost a phsycic connection.
we are almost like twins.even to yawning in church.
we know when the other is sad or down and this is what makes it so hard.is that i know how she feels and needs a momma.
we talk on the internet every day and she confides in me about every thing in her life and i am afraid to tell her a lot of my depression,because then she will worry about me.
a never ending circle.

[bajohnson]

I agree with radio, keep talking and sharing and reading and you'll be fine.
Hugs,
Beth