[Omarosa]

I am new to these forums and I have been reading many positive posts about successful reunions. I, myself have not been as lucky.

From the first day of reunification with the people I was biologically related to, I was never accepted. At the time of contact I was 22. I waited 4 years after receiving word that the Bio-Mom was searching for me before making contact. It was hard to decide if I wanted to meet her at all. I went through all sorts of emotions, trying to determine if the action to reunite was the correct step.

Well, I did not pay attention to my own instincts or heed any warnings from the parents who raised me about what I was getting myself into (what could they know, right?). I went ahead and contacted the Bio-Mom. What I discovered has caused me more emotional pain than the spankings I received from Amom as a child.

Before meeting Bio-Mom I had a strong sense of my own identity. Although it was a complete fabrication, it was easier to believe in myself about where I "fit-in" in society and the woman I was becoming. When I met Bio-Mom I became confused about "who" I was. I was trying to please her and Amom. I was being torn in half by two different women, neither one ever really wanted to be my "mom".

So, here we are 12 years later. I have no relationship with any of my Bio-siblings (there are 4 of them, 2 brothers, 2 sisters, I am the eldest). Other than the occasional phone call, late at night, from a drunk girl who claims we have the same mother, who is only calling to ***** at me and tell me "frakking stupid' I am, we rarely have any contact. The actions of this Bio-family have proven to me that I will never be accepted into the family, and I wonder now why I ever wanted to be. What you come to find out during your searching is: sometimes, things are better left unknown. Curiosity killed the cat, and my heart.

How many other adoptees have experienced reunion nightmares and wished they had never made the choice to reunite?

[bprice215]

Let me say how sorry I am about your reunion, nobody deserves what you have been put through. Your sense of self should be noted and all the pulling both women are doing should all be in vain. You are what is important here. You are the master of your destiney. Please don't let your amom and birth mom take that away. Hold your head up high and let them say and do what they desire. Please note you are better than that, and I wish you all the happiness that you deserve. Take care, be strong, and be good. You'll win in the end.
bprice215