[noni1970]

Hi Everyone,

This is my first post to this forum, so treat me gently

I am in reunion with my natural mother and father (whom I refer to as "dad").

I met my mother first, and things are more than rocky, they're turbulent. Our relationship is simply an email by email affair at this point, for many reasons.

A week ago I met dad for the first time. We'd hit it off instantly when we started emailing a few months ago, so I knew the IRL reunion would go well.

However, I spent nearly the entire three days with him with a huge desire just to touch his skin, hug him, and be with him, and him only. Not in a sexual manner AT ALL. I guess in exactly the same way my youngest (now 2yo, and the only one of my kids to make the journey with me) often doesn't let go of me. Perhaps a security thing ? I don't know. Maybe a way to make up for the lack of concern my natural mother has shown towards me ? ACK !

We live several hours apart (had to fly up to meet him), and the distance between us just tears me up. It's like I have the need to make up for 36 years of lost time. (Neither he nor I knew about me/my adoption until last year). I'd move next door in a heartbeat if I could.

Please tell me I'm not alone feeling like this. Help !

Cheers,
Noni.

[country_girl273]

Your not alone. I just got to talk to my bmom tonight and she lives 3000 miles away. I miss her terribly.