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To my bdaughter on her 21st bithday:
21 years ago today, the greatest thing in my life happened. Unfortunatly it was also the saddest day of my life. A beautiful baby girl was born, but life was not fair to me. I couldn't keep this most beautiful amazing girl. I was not married, had no job, parents "advised" that I shouldn't keep you if I wanted to be able to come home. I never touched you, never held you, never even heard you cry. I was able to look at you through the nursery window. I stood there for hours, just looking at you, wishing. Wishing I had someone, anyone, who would say, "I'll help you if you want to keep her." But there was no one. For the past 21 years I have thought about you. At two years, I wonder if she has taken her first steps yet? Is she potty trained?
At five, I wonder if she started kindergarten? Is she smart? Does she like to read? At 10, I wonder how many friends she has. Is she popular with her friends. Does she hang out with the right kids? At 12, I wonder, did she start going to Young Womens? Does she enjoy it as much as I did? At 16, I wonder, is she dating? At 18, I wonder, Is she graduating high school this year? Is she going to go to college? Is she going to get married or go on a mission? Now at 21, Is she married? Does she have kids of her own? But most of all every year I wonder, Is she happy, healthy, alive?
I know that I may not be the most popular person in your life right now, and thats ok. I have never wanted to butt into your life. I just want you to know that I know that I did the right thing when I gave you to your mom and dad. I had still not really grown up yet, I had alot of mistakes still to make. But I know the one thing that I did right was to let you go.
I picture you now as a grown woman, with your whole life ahead of you, so many adventures to take. I wish you well in everything that you do or even touch.
I do hope someday you will be interested to find me and find who I am and who you come from. But I am pretty patient and can wait until you are ready. I'm pretty easy to find, still living in the state you were born in.
Lots of Love to you.
Your birthmom