[rbnrichardson]

Hello, my name is Rachel, I am very new to this but I am struggling with my identity as an individual and I think it may stem from my adoption and I thought I might be able to share it and perhaps find some answers.
When I was three and a half months my parents adopted me in Ireland, my father is British and my mother is Canadian. They had previously adopted twins about three years prior also from Ireland. When I was five years old we moved from Ireland to Canada and I have been living here ever since (almost 20 years).
I have never in the past had any issues with my adoption whatsoever I have incredible parents who have taught me well and have taken the best of care of me and I am grateful for that. I grew up accepting and knowing I was adopted and have been proud of that.
When I turned 18 I requested information about my birth mother and her family and received a lot of information from her and was put in touch with her and we had fairly regular contact. However more recently perhaps shortly after I got in contact with her I seem to find myself struggling with who I am and who I identify myself with, if I am Irish anymore or am I Canadian. It seems so petty and silly but I just cant seem to shake the feeling. My parents aren't Irish and I haven't been back to Ireland in over ten years. Id like to think that if i went back everything would be fine but I have nothing to go back to, unlike my sisters who left when they were a bit older, I left when I was so young that I don't have friends or really anything connecting me there anymore.
I don't know if this is normal because I have found my birth mother and her family recently, as a result of this battle in my mind I havent been able to talk to her as i am unsure if it makes it better or worse so then i feel as though i am betraying her.
I have always said I had no issues with my adoption but maybe I do? Does anyone have any ideas or can relate to me i'd really appreciate it.

Thanks, Take Care

[Dickons]

Bumping this up so that others will see it and hope you find some good advice.

Kind regards,
Dickons