[foundchild07]

I was never told that I was adopted. I am 39 years old. All through my life I always felt like I did not belong or fit in. On both sides of my family I never saw me. I started questioning my parents back when I was in 5th grade, after I got into a fight with my cousin who was spending the night with me. In the middle of our argument she says "that's why you were found in a garbage can". I remember feeling so lost at that point, not understanding why that would come out of her mouth. I asked my mom why she would say something like that and all she said was "kids can be so cruel".

Well years went by and my grandfather (fathers father) was yelling at me and said "shut up - you are not even my granddaughter". WOW another blow. Once again all my parents said when I questioned it was... "You know he's - he does not mean it".

I have always - always felt like something was missing. Please do not get me wrong - I was loved, spoiled and doted on. I was an only child with so much to be thankful for - but yet.... Was I just ungrateful?

My mother passed away in 2001 and its been hard for me. I became a foster parent to a set of twin boys whom I have since adopted. They came home from the hospital to me.

I am going to skip ahead now. It is now 2008 and last Friday - JUST last Friday (January 28th,2008) I received a phone call from someone that told me - with much coaxing on my end that I was adopted and I have a sister, brother and birth mom that wanted to meet me - would I be willing??

Well yesterday I spoke to my birth mother, my birth sister and my birth brother. Go back a few days Wednesday I even spoke with my birth father who did not even know that he was my father until a day before that - IMAGINE THAT!

I want sooo bad to develop a relationship with all of my family - you see although I was adopted by parents who were made just for me - I have parents whom I was made from. I actually look like someone!!

I sound just like my sister - we are so similar its frightening. Through the tears and loneliness and loss I am being given another gift of life.

My adoptive mother I know loved me very very much and I cannot be angry with her for keeping this secret. No relationship that I develop with my birth mom will ever dim or take away the love that I have for my mommy. This is the hard part for me in that I do not want to disrespect the memory of my adoptive mom.

As I said I just found all of this out on Friday with over the course of the week until yesterday I did not even know.

My birth mother for the first time in my life told me that she loved me has always loved me. I am so excited about getting to know her and her knowing me. There is a lot of time for all of us to make up.

I thank God for the chance.


Thanks for reading.

[kakuehl]

Welcome to the roller coaster of reunion. Thanks for sharing your story.

[snuffie]

Oh, that is so wonderful. Finally the questions you've had in your heart will be answered.

Best wishes for a wonderful reunion.

[vsmith]

That is a touching and great story. All the best to you and all of your family.

[agator1965]

Wonderful story, I wish you the best of luck and a great reunion. I do know how you feel. I found out I was adopted when I was 40. I have spent the last 2 years trying to get information on my birth family. It has definetly been a struggle but one that needs to addressed. I nice to know that there is hope out there for those of us who are still trying to locate our birth families. Best wishes and happiness to you and your families