[breenoelle85]

I don't know if this post actually goes here, but I wanted to share a story concerning *my* adoption. Unlike a few unfortunate adoptees who didn't find out until later, I have *always* known about my adoption. At the age of 3, I understood that I had grown inside my birthmother's *tummy* and was adopted by my "Mom and Dad."

The story I want to share took place when I was just three-year-old. (My mother told me about it while her and Dad were getting divorced.) On that particular day, Mom was in the living room cleaning, when I came up walking up the hallway. I walked up and told her I needed to talk to her about something. We sat down on the couch, and as I remember it, she wasn't really paying attention to me. She was looking towards the kitchen (probably think of chores and stuff.)

So, I place my 3-year-old hands on either side of her face and turn it so that she is looking me in the eyes. Then (according to her) I said, "Mommy, when I was still my in birthmother's tummy, God was with me and he spoke to me. He said that he heard you crying, and that you needed me. He made sure my birthmother would chose you. That's why she couldn't keep me."

So, yeah....now that I'm bawling like a little kid, I'm going to leave this message for you. At three-years-old, I didn't even know what "J-E-S-U-S" spelt (or who he was for that matter, and I thought people who died turned into angels who watched over us.... My parents were, in general, very very "secular." I was 7 or 8 years old before a friend invited me to Sunday School for the first time.

So, you can judge for yourselves where you want to believe the words that came out of my mouth came from. I know where I think it came from, but either way. . . the message I got out of it was this:

If you are an adopted parent, you didn't chose us; God chose us for you. If you are one of the ones who can't have children (like my Mom), God here's your pain and has a child out there just for you. And if you are a birthparent, do not feel guilty because you *gave us away.* You did your job as a parent by chosing *not* to abort the life God placed inside of you. And try not to worry because you don't know where we are. God knows even if you don't. . .


God Bless All!

~Noelle~

[Montraviatommyg]

Noelle, I feel quite choked by your post in a nice way...it's one of the sweetest ones I've read for a while . Btw, I'm an original mother.

Pip

[AMom2Two]

Thank you for sharing....

[searchingforanswers]

i was adopted and learned about my birthmom just this year. i am not sure god wants me here with my aparents. i know my birthmom doesnt really want it either. i think everything just got mixed up. i am pregnant now. i dont know what i am going to do. but it is not up to god, it is up to me.
my birthmom is so sad without me. i dont think god really wants that. my aparents are mad at both of us. i dont think god wants that either. both mom are mad at each other too. i dont want that. it is not fair. the dads get away with everything. how can god want that. why would god want that. what about what i want.

[Montraviatommyg]

Originally Posted by searchingforanswers

i was adopted and learned about my birthmom just this year. i am not sure god wants me here with my aparents. i know my birthmom doesnt really want it either. i think everything just got mixed up. i am pregnant now. i dont know what i am going to do. but it is not up to god, it is up to me.
my birthmom is so sad without me. i dont think god really wants that. my aparents are mad at both of us. i dont think god wants that either. both mom are mad at each other too. i dont want that. it is not fair. the dads get away with everything. how can god want that. why would god want that. what about what i want.

Loads of hugs being sent your way as you need them now...you will get plenty of support here....



Pip

[Benedicta]

Dear Searching for answers:

Kudo's to you for asking the BIG questions !!!

You need big answers for big decesions.

Look deep, for what is BEST for you & your child. This is a decesion that will affect the rest of your lives - in a BIG way .A permanent way ! It runs deeply thru the core of who you are & will become after your choice.
No getting around it, there is pain involved, regardless the choice.

If I may presume to offer some advice ?
Besides searching & participating on these forums ( which can be invaluable) ,perhaps you can look around your life for someone to walk w/ you on this journey. A trusted & wise friend ,a kind of a coach or mentor . Or perhaps a professional counsellor or guide, Someone to support you thru the difficult times. Reach out!! ( I sure wish I had of 38 yrs ago ).

Also, ask God. He lives inside of you. He will guide you if you choose to follow . Your free choice.

You are in my heart & in my prayers in a special way...I've been where you are !


Noelle.....your story touched the deepest parts of my being ,where my soul is & my son still lives...thank you SO MUCH for sharing your experience.
" Out of the mouths of babes & children come perfect praise".

b

[myheart]

Originally Posted by Benedicta

Noelle.....your story touched the deepest parts of my being ,where my soul is & my son still lives...thank you SO MUCH for sharing your experience.
" Out of the mouths of babes & children come perfect praise".

b

Me too!!
Out of the mouths of Babes.

This story reminded me of the day my son was born.
When I went into the NICU to see my son for the very first time...I remember picking him up. When I first held him and kissed his little face with tears rolling down my eyes....he smiled at me. I remember B (bmom) saying "OMG, look he's smiling at you". His first smile was for me as to say I know who you are, you are my mommy...I will never forget that day. I couldn't even if I wanted to, Bs mom just happen to take a picture of ds and me at that very moment. She gave me that picture and it is in the center of our home.
Everytime I look at that picture I am reminded of the miracle God has given us!

Many Blessings,
Myheart

[Brittmomto3]

Noelle,


I can picture that whole coversation.That is beautiful.

My daughter is now three and we always have shared *her* story, with her. We even had a book professionally made with pictures, to tell her story. It talks about how we prayed to God and he...answered our prayers. She knows her story and whose belly she was in, and how we became a happy family.

I am the Mommy to three daughters through the miracle of adoption.

I tell their birth mothers often ...that they are our angels on earth ..sent by GOD to deliver our miracle babies.

I beleive, like you, this was God's plan and this was
"meant to be." God brings families together in all different ways ...I am glad he chose ADOPTION for ours.

[patti Daniels]

I wish you and your baby well. It is your choice. Remember, we all are not perfect. I am an adoptive mom. I have made mistakes, but I want my daughter with me. We argue about rules and sometimes I have to be the one that my daughter dislikes because of rules. Please talk to your amom and your bmom. I am sure they love you. God loves you too. I am sure you will make the right decision. I will pray for you and your family.

Originally Posted by searchingforanswers

i was adopted and learned about my birthmom just this year. i am not sure god wants me here with my aparents. i know my birthmom doesnt really want it either. i think everything just got mixed up. i am pregnant now. i dont know what i am going to do. but it is not up to god, it is up to me.
my birthmom is so sad without me. i dont think god really wants that. my aparents are mad at both of us. i dont think god wants that either. both mom are mad at each other too. i dont want that. it is not fair. the dads get away with everything. how can god want that. why would god want that. what about what i want.

[bprice215]

Very inspirational.
bprice215

[bprice215]

God works in very mysterious ways, I am a living example to that. You guys saddness today will one day be your reward, have faith, for God has faith in you. bprice

[dmca]

wonderful story. For those of us(me)that don't deal with Jesus, I think I'll just believe it was God.
dmca

[stephaniegaeth]

Originally Posted by breenoelle85

I don't know if this post actually goes here, but I wanted to share a story concerning *my* adoption. Unlike a few unfortunate adoptees who didn't find out until later, I have *always* known about my adoption. At the age of 3, I understood that I had grown inside my birthmother's *tummy* and was adopted by my "Mom and Dad."

The story I want to share took place when I was just three-year-old. (My mother told me about it while her and Dad were getting divorced.) On that particular day, Mom was in the living room cleaning, when I came up walking up the hallway. I walked up and told her I needed to talk to her about something. We sat down on the couch, and as I remember it, she wasn't really paying attention to me. She was looking towards the kitchen (probably think of chores and stuff.)

So, I place my 3-year-old hands on either side of her face and turn it so that she is looking me in the eyes. Then (according to her) I said, "Mommy, when I was still my in birthmother's tummy, God was with me and he spoke to me. He said that he heard you crying, and that you needed me. He made sure my birthmother would chose you. That's why she couldn't keep me."

So, yeah....now that I'm bawling like a little kid, I'm going to leave this message for you. At three-years-old, I didn't even know what "J-E-S-U-S" spelt (or who he was for that matter, and I thought people who died turned into angels who watched over us.... My parents were, in general, very very "secular." I was 7 or 8 years old before a friend invited me to Sunday School for the first time.

So, you can judge for yourselves where you want to believe the words that came out of my mouth came from. I know where I think it came from, but either way. . . the message I got out of it was this:

If you are an adopted parent, you didn't chose us; God chose us for you. If you are one of the ones who can't have children (like my Mom), God here's your pain and has a child out there just for you. And if you are a birthparent, do not feel guilty because you *gave us away.* You did your job as a parent by chosing *not* to abort the life God placed inside of you. And try not to worry because you don't know where we are. God knows even if you don't. . .


God Bless All!

~Noelle~

I loved the stories you have written! I am a Bmom with a daughter somewhere the same age as you who I chose a family for and was adopted on the third day. How inspiring to hear a gal your age talk so happily and comfortably about the fact that she was adopted! I don't want to interfere, but I hope and pray that she finds me. I worry that no one has told her, even though all those years ago they said that they would and would help her find me when the time came.... I just wanted to say "Bless you" and the wonderful Afamily that raised such a mature and loving heart in you!

[rsbg]

AWESOME story! God is in control! As a future adoptive parent, I really appreciate you sharing your story! Thank you!

[zzetta]

I believe that God has a purpose for everyone. But while he made a couple very happy with my son, He tore my heart out.