[kathyowen03]

At age 9, I was very nosey about digging through stuff in my parents house. One day I decided to go through my parents file box and found adoption papers on my two brothers and myself. Being so young, I didn't really know what to think of this. But as time passed, I kept reading the papers over and over till I could understand them. That's when it hit me!!! POW!!! I didn't know what to think or feel. I guess EMPTY was the correct word for it. Thats when the horror began.....I rebelled and put my adoptive parents through hell !!. On the adoption papers was my name given to me by my bio mother Cheri Hunner. And I remember yelling out..."My name isn't Kathy!!! It's Cheri!!!" My life was a terror from then on. I put those poor people through some real nitemares. But several years later, I came to terms with reality, and learned to except the adoption. My parents were wonderful people!!! And they always gave the best of everything. But I still carried this empty feeling deep inside of who I really was. So I continued to search. I registered with a web site one afternoon, and by 5 pm that evening I was talking to my bio mom!! SHOCKED
I told her all the info about the parents that raised me, and how my life was. I wanted to wait for the right time to tell my parents that I had found my bio mom. But as things will go wrong, they did!! My bio mom took it apon herself to call my parents without my permission, and all hell broke loose. My adoptive mother died 3 weeks after that call. And I never got the chance to explain, or tell her how much I loved her. She died of natural causes, but still it leaves a feeling of "Did I cause her death?" Then...my father dies in 2003 of loosing his soulmate of 53 years of marriage. Now I have lost 2 of the most wonderful, loving people in the world!! And to this day..my bio mom hardly ever calls me, or email, nothing!!! And I'm stuck with 2 sisters and 2 brothers (bio mom's other sibs) with nothing but problems, and me being the oldest, I get all the garbage. So I find myself with a new family, but still a great big EMPTY feeling inside. I still keep in close touch with my adoptive brother. Ever since mom and dad passed, we have become very close. But my little adoptive brother won't have anything to do with the family now that he has found is bio family. But since I have found my bio mom, I have got info out of her about who my bio father is. So I find the guy, I write him, put him in total shock!!! We get DNA tests done, and then find out...he's not my bio dad!!! She don't know who she slept with!!! Could of been the Milk Man for all she knows. But I still keep in touch with this man, and I found out from him that he was adopted. And so I'm helping him find his family. Good luck all of you!!! and I hope you find who you are looking for!!! and I hope they are wonderful people!!! Good Luck!!!