[leifjackie]

I am feeling so so down...i know many of you have gone through battles and issues to bring your child home. I just feel like it's not going to happen; the system is purposefully working against us.

Here's the last 2 weeks:

My dh is in GC now with our beautiful daughter. At three years old and being in several care settings, she is daddy shopping with everyone, male and female, so he cannot leave the room in the hotel. She calls him Papi and their relationship is pretty good when it's jus them, but the daddy shopping is tough for him.

He's gone with our atty to PGN and met with 3 people who say that all that is needed is a paper from the MP to move ahead and finish.

The book an appointment with the MP, only to be told that morning that he/she is not in the office that day afterall.

They just show up the next day to ask/wait and are told, sorry, he/she is on vacation.

Our atty feels that CNA may be a better approach. In calling CNA, he was basically, no, PGN has to finish the case.

Now, he's writing something to submit to a judge for our case to see if that might help.

It is really sad, my dh with daughter in hand, are going to these places and those with the authority are not letting her come home to us.

I just feel beyond down in the dumps. The future looks bleak with him there, me at home. Our daughter's little young life has been forever transformed by those in their system who don't care. She has a little sister who has spoken on the phone with her most every night and may never get to see her.

I just hope and pray we get a miracle to bring her home someday. I guess if I were asked right now, I would say that I wouldn't count on it.

I think that I've run out of ways to cheer myself up on this...

[annaguat]

Praying for a miracle. Hugs, Anna

[MomtoJABE]

LJ,
I totally understand where you are right now. I just want you to know that you are in my prayers and on my mind.

I remember very well being in the exact place. It is a very real, difficult place to be and I am so sorry you are still fighting this battle. For some reason it feels that everyone down there wants to make this process completely impossible for some children. No one, especially a child, should have to suffer through all of this when there is a loving family who long to care for them.

I also understand what you are experiencing with the separation of your family. We had to do the same thing for a month and it isn't easy at all. But as hard as it was for us, Robbie was with us and we weren't letting him go.

I wish I had answers but I don't. Just always remember that you are the only ones fighting for her right now and you will win. I don't know how long it will take but she is worth every exhausting, difficult moment. I know you know that!!

I am here my friend. Email me anytime or call. I am always available and have an open ear and shoulder for you if you need it.

[CEB]

I will continue to pray for that miracle as well. I know that your whole family should and needs to be together forever.

[robandjulie]

Extra prayers for your family. I'm so sorry and won't claim to understand how exhausting and frustrating this has been for you as I can't fathom it, but you are in our prayers and thoughts and I have faith that you will get through this.

Julie

[cbmstephanie]

My heart breaks for your little one, you, your DH and all the others waiting for her to come home.

I still think though...that she will come home. I know it's easy for me to say and excrutiating for you to go through, but I do believe she will....she will...she will....she will!!!

Stay Strong!! She Will!!

[SmileLaughLearn]

Just want you to know that your family is in my prayers. Sending hugs.

[Larue]

Hi LJ - As you know, Sabrina struggled with attachment. And she Mommy shopped quite a bit for the 2 months I fostered her in Guatemala, and for several months after we came home. Though it had lessened quite a bit after we left Guatemala, and gradually dissipated as she began to trust me, and realize that I wasn't going anywhere. I understand how upsetting it must be for your DH. BOY do I. After Sabrina fell asleep at night, I used go sit in the living room and cry. The one thing I would say to your DH, is as hard as it is remember this at times, it's really not about him. I'm sure he is a great Papi. And that you're a great Mami too. Just look how hard you're both fighting for your baby girl. I am keeping you both in my prayers and thoughts. And I hope that you hear good news on your case very soon!!!

p.s. If you ever feel like you need a little diversion, please feel free to PM me. Sabrina I would love to have a play date. Many hugs to you!

[praying4rlittl1]

I'm so sorry that this keeps dragging on for you. Praying that the MP gets their act together and signs this paper so that the rest of your family can come home. My heart to you.

[dilgra]

I am so sorry for all that you and your family are going through. This is just not right, I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better but there are no words. You will be in my prayers.

[susy...patience]

It's just terrible.....I have no other words except I am so, so sorry.

[jamilahlashwe]

This is so very hard. I am thinking of you and praying that you bring your daughter home and soon.

[alreadylove2005]

I got goose-bumps ready your post because I remember feeling a similar dispair.

I wish I could fast forward for you to a better time when you are holding your daughter and telling her about how much you loved her and struggled to bring her home.

I pray your daughter is in your arms forever, and that this time will soon be nothing but a memory.

((((((hugs)))))

[Quesita]

I am so so so sorry. I cannot believe that the first three years of your daughter's life have been spent in this limbo, while you sit and wait and fight to bring her home. I have no words of wisdom, no words of comfort. Like so many of us here, I wait for news on your family's progress.

[karen nickols]

I am praying every day. For all of you. Love Karen