[renee3113]

Hello,
We are no longer considering Guatemala for an adoption, due to the impending changes in that country. I am not a risk taker, and can't imagine falling in love with a baby that may never come home.
I'm very, very sad. My heart has been set on Guatemala for so long. We were in the midst of trying to arrange our finances, but decided to hold off a little to see what was going to happen. Since things seem so grim, we have decided to switch countries. I feel bad that if I had been able to afford it a year ago when I wanted to begin, that maybe my child would be home already.
I don't want to sound dramatic, but my heart feels broken. I have envisioned my daughter's face for so long; seen parts of her face in the faces in the photos posted on this site. I feel as if now my daughter from Guatemala, one I will never know, will grow up without me.
My heart is also broken for the thousands of children who will be born and will have nowhere to go. I'm scared for them. How sad that there are people that are willing to love them and raise them, but cannot. What a sad statement about human beings in general that people can't figure out something so simple as taking care of children.
I pray for all of you families that are currently going through the process. I pray that your children come home quickly and safely.
I will continue to lurk here on this board in the hopes of seeing a lot of your children coming home, and that the situation in Guatemala changes quickly and for the better. Who knows, maybe in a few years, I will be able to go and find my daughter. Maybe she will still be waiting for me.

I can't express enough my good wishes for all of you.


Renee
(who can no longer see through her tears)

[lockharts]

AWWW My heart is breaking for you.. I totally understand your logic. I too would not be able to take a risk like that either. The psychological strain would send me off the deep end. Please keep us posted on your adoption where ever you go.. Good luck and God Bless. :hug:

[pjkay720]

Aww, I'm so sorry and feel for you. I'm a risk taker therefore, I going to go for it. I'm crazy and will probably regret my decision. It's been a hard decision to make so I completely understand how you are feeling and what a hard decision it was that you made. My son is from Guatemala and I want his brother or sister to be from Guatemala. I just started the process to so I'm extremely nervous. I hope some day you are able to adopt a little girl from Guatemala until then I know GOD will lead you down the right path for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

[CashCrew]

Awwwww Renee I am so sorry. It's such a personal decision and everyone has to decide what's best for them. I can't say what we would have done if it we were 6 weeks earlier than we are now, before our referral. I am going to be thinking of you so please check in and let us all know how you are doing and where you choose to adopt from.

[kacmom1]

You know, Renee, I believe that things happen for a reason. Maybe the reason that your mind is telling you to go somewhere is is because your baby is THERE waiting for you. Maybe you thought all along that is was Guatemala....but maybe it's not!

I though for many years that I needed to give birth to another baby to complete our family. And then....we talked about adoption....and I gave up on the thought of getting pregnant....and now we have the most perfect little boy from Guatemala. I knew it the MINUTE I saw his face....months before we could accept a referral! I can't imagine life without him. All along, I thought it was another bio child who was to come into our lives when all along, it wasn't. It was our little Luca who was waiting for us!

Did you ever hear the song ...."thank God for unanswered prayers"? Maybe your unanswered prayer is waiting for you somewhere else in this big world! Now, go and find her!!!!!!

Good luck!

[bamagirl]

It's so hard to go through the indecision and the uncertainty of the process without the added stress of country issues!! I truly hope you find your forever baby and are at peace with whatever you decide. I am scared to obut I have absolute faith that this is the right path for us.

[Mandy4President]

Originally Posted by kacmom1

You know, Renee, I believe that things happen for a reason. Maybe the reason that your mind is telling you to go somewhere is is because your baby is THERE waiting for you. Maybe you thought all along that is was Guatemala....but maybe it's not!

Well said Kelly.

Please keep us posted Renee. I wish you the best of luck and I'm so sorry that things are the way they are in Guatemala right now.

[Larue]

Renee - I feel for you, and the incredibly difficult decision you've had to make. Please keep in touch. Maybe your "next" adoption will be from Guatemala, when things settle down.

Wishing you all the best in your adoption journey

[buckeye1]

I just want to say that Kelly's post was very well written. Renee, I'm sorry you've come to this point, and I don't blame you for making this decision at all. Everything does seem to happen for a reason though, and I'm hopeful your child is with you soon.

[TheCuteCouple]

hi
sorry to hear about your circumstance, but i can sympathize. forgive me for not knowing, but what is the problem in guatemala?