[Pipercub]

It's been one day shy of 5 weeks since we last got a picture and update on our daughter. Our agency said we'll likely be getting updates every 4-6 weeks. (Which I am SO grateful for!) I tell my husband that I'm not that emotionally attached to her yet, but I know I'm such a lier. I am completely and deeply in love with her. I sit at my computer email and click "Send/Receive" over and over and over, all day long, as if I will somehow be able to "will" an email update and pictures to magically appear. What's really crazy is that I find myself still doing this at 8 or 9 o'clock at night - long after our agency has closed.

Today I very nearly pulled out all the Thanksgiving decorations and even wanted to put up the Christmas tree - as if that would make the calendar read "December" instead of "September." (LOL- my husband would die if he came home to that, so rest assured, those seasonal items are still packed away...)

I told myself I wasn't going to be one of "those" people that obsessed over everything. I would turn in the dossier and then go back to my ordinary life until it was time for her to come home. Ha. I was seriously delusional to think that would be possible!

[TyAva]

You just described me exactly! But the ironic part is that our agency does send email updates in the evenings...so a couple of times I checked my inbox "just one last time" at like 11 pm and suprise there is my baby!!!! I love when that happens! I hope that your sweet baby is home soon and that the months until then fly by!

[nykrissy]

You are not alone!!!! I am a picture freak...totally obcessed with all pictures but esp those of my beautiful daughter! We are to receive mthly updates within the first few days of the mth....well today is the 14th and still NOTHING! And to even make me more crazy...our agency director made a trip tp Guatemala the end of Aug. and made DVD's for all the families of their babies.....well she said she mailed them out last Friday and we stilll haven't received ours.....OMG! I bet it is lost in the mail and she has NO copy of that DVD! I can't believe that my baby's video is floating out there somewhere I I am not going to get to see it. I am just going through withdrawls!!!! Oh and BTW...I sit in front of this computer waiting all day and night for some email from our agency director. When I have to run out...all I think is "i wonder if there is am email from her?"

[Justhavfaith]

I told myself that I too was going to turn in my dossier and go back to "NORMAL" life until it was time to get my little one. As the months have gone by, it has gotten worse and now that I'm in PGN - I'm seriously NOT normal. I read and post to this forum all day and I'm at work. Obviously I'm not productive at work and everyone here is so great. They are letting me be crazy for awhile. It will all be worth it when he comes home but until then - - "I think I can, I think I can"

[Travelkid]

You are not alone! I too thought I would go back to every day life and it's simply impossible. I was bad after our visit and worse after we entered PGN. I am very busy with work in the fall, yet i still think about him all the time and constantly read the forum, I feel like I am obsessed!