[lifessence]

Ok, you got me sweet Sunshine of mine!

Tears are rolling down my face, a smile deep in my heart - not seen from the outside. Your words are more beautiful to me no because of what they are - but because of who you are!

I was going to email you privately - but what you wrote so eloquently is for all to see - the heart of Jesus living inside of you - in me - in all of those who will just step out in faith and believe.

The blessings aren't just for one person they are for all of us! They are so precious and special...the trials we have, the pain we endure, the challenges we face are all ways for Him to bring us closer to Him - to touch us in only way He can - perfectly! He knows what you need, when you need it and unlike all those in our lives - He does it in the way He knows you can handle it and grow from it. With me He knew it had to be soft and loving - if not I would not know it was of Him - I would feel like I had with every other experience in my life - two steps good and then five steps back with pain. He has been there to catch every single step I have taken in faith this past year and He not only doesn't let me down He surprises me day after day - just like you did today with a gift from Him - that you could only give to me because you love Him so!

I thank you and everyone with a heart for Jesus to share my joy, His blessings and understanding what it meanst to trust in His perfect plan and timing!

Wow! I am in awe right now - thank you sweet Jesus for my dear friend and all the wonderful people I am meeting on the forum. Bless them today Father and hear their silent prayers that only you know about! Give them a heart for you and the strength and patience to keep walking in Your light. I ask all of these things in your most precious name! Amen.

Ok, now I don't know what to do with all of my joy. Crying is not easy for me to do - so I will let them flow for every heart out there hurting and needing to be washed clean by His hands. Sending you all joy in Him today - rejoice He made the day perfect just for you!

[VReed]

This is the reason that I continue to be active on these boards. My two Guat. granddaughters have been home for a long time, but there are so many wonderful believers on this forum, and God knows that every few days there is a thread that appears simply to glorify our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and to remind us of His love and His perfect timing. Enormous blessings to all of you! Vicki, the Grammy

[melissa41]

There is a saying that I love... Let go and let God. I am just beginning this adventure. We have just signed with an agency and are working on our home study questionnaire. I love reading the posts about how slowly or quickly things are working on different people's adoption. So I know during this process I will have to "let go and let God" work in his own time. Thanks for sharing all the posts. They are beautiful

Melissa

[Julie L]

lifessense,

Thank you for posting. I really needed to hear what you were saying today. I am really struggling with our adoption right now. We have had a HUGE glich in FC of all places.

I am not on the board a whole lot, but wondered if there is a link or a place where you have shared your journey or do you have a blog?

I am trying to make sense and realize all of this in NOT my timing - but right now that is very hard for me and DH. I loved reading your posts on this thread and it has given me new hope. However, I feel there is much that I missed from your previous posts and journey.

If you wish you can email me privately or post.
Thank you. I also PM'd you re: your book and website earlier.

Julie
sergejulie@sbcglobal.net
www.petjanitor.com/baby

[lifessence]

Dear Julie and all others going through adoption with a situation that is not easy or even for those whose adoption has gone seamless - I hope these words will bring joy to your heart and peace to your soul even for today.

Sometimes when we go through the toughest times we are unable to see God's hands in the midst of it and we feel very alone - or maybe He has forgotten us. I want to reassure you that not only has He NOT forgotten you but He is right there in the midst of it all working His biggest magic! He loves you and your child that you are waiting to adopt more than you ever will or realize. Maybe not until the day you get to meet Him in Heaven. I look forward to the day I stand before Him and in His eyes I see all my questions answered and understand just what waiting on Him really meant and feeling His love like I never did before.

I urge you to to not look at the situation but what is the lesson God is trying to teach or how is He using the situation to prepare you for greater good or His plan for your life?

I was sick for almost 11 years - at the time I did NOT know He was preparing me to help 100's of people get better and cure many things Doctors told them were impossible. If I had not gone through every situation that I did I would not had the passion to learn everything I did to be prepared for when our now 4 yr old almost became fully autistic - yet I was able to turn it around and with the grace of God watching me when I still didn't know Him by name. It is not through our works that we get closer to Him - it is in our weakest moments that we are able to hear Him the most. I didn't even know what was happening at the time she was going through the hurts and pains no mother wants to see her child feel - I know now that my heart was being prepared to mother "5" children. I know now that He used everything in my life over the past five years to prepare me for everything that I am going through now and yet to do. I remember when I was a little girl - inside when my childhood was really tough and people said mean things to me or about me a little voice told me I would be special. I thank God for that little voice it kept me alive during some hard times in life. I now know that little voice was the Holy Spirit - how great and awesome is a God who waited on me for 37+ years and opened His loving arms right when I needed Him most - and before we began the road of adoption after another miscarriage. It all works out and we don't have to be in control to let it happen!

I know without a doubt that only God could have lifted me up and given me the confidence to write my book, let alone publish it and share it with others - then to be bold enough to stand in front of large groups of people and some top doctors teaching them truths many have never heard. I know without a shadow of doubt that only God has erased that passion now to only desire to be a full time Mom now that His plan is taking shape - adopting our third child in less than a year.

So you see Julie - what God has in store may not be revealed for years - but the magic of God is this - you reap what you sow - you reap more than you sow - you will always reap later than you sow. I love that - so if I am obedient to Him in all of my ways - come before Him when I need to repent and forgive - what I reap will always be a blessing - even when I can't see the blessing I am meant to receive.

Our God is so BIG and wonderful. It took me 37 years to know Him - as a new believer in Christ - born Jewish and wanting to know Him more every day I can say to you with all of my heart - I know your struggle to understand why the problems in my life/adoption/situation etc.? I can also share with you now - a peace that I have going through all of them because I do know Him now and have just a small idea of His love, mercy and grace for my life!

You are not alone and He is right by your side and I can guaruntee one thing - He will use every situation if we let Him for the glory of His name.

Thank you for reading this thread - thank you for contacting me - thank you sweet Jesus for helping me be bold to share my heart with so many that I have never met. I know you are using our life to touch others and I am humbled to be called your own.

Truly praying for everyone today and always!

[Julie L]

WOW. Thank you. I just read your post and cried. I tried to read it to my DH and cried again.

You have such a wonderful gift and I have copied this and will bring it out and read it when I am low.

Thank you again for your words of encouragement.

[lifessence]

You are welcome! Thank you for giving me a place to safely share my heart!

[Alexismandyjr]

Thank you lifesscence for posting those words. God has his perfect plan for all of us. We just need to trust in Him and we will all be fine. Thank you and keep those posts coming.

[lifessence]

There is a great book on this very thing - many Christians say this - I heard it for a year and never got it until I read this book - The Key - Letting Go and Letting God by Nancy Missler

This book changed my life forever and I had an amazing book discussion on that and her other book - Why Should I be ther First to Change? - Marriage the way God intended.

Our home study is being done tomorrow night now - please pray for us, our process and the paperwork needed to be turned into INS in a timely manner. May God's will be done!

[TerriBB]

Thanks for posting...I'm really struggling and I'm not happy with God's time. (grrr) Our flie has been delayed due to humans not caring. We are a file, a profit center and they do not view our child as a person. I know God is working through imperfect humans to get our baby to us. She has failure to thrive...we've now been in PGN longer than it took to get DNA Authorization and that took 3.5 months!!! She was 10 months old yesterday and has a BC from GC. It's not the timing of matching the perfect child - we've had her since she was less than 2 weeks old. She needs to be seen by a REAL doctor...we bought our house because it was less than 5 miles to 2 excellent Children's Hospitals...and now when we need them, it's impossible to get her there!!

Thanks for letting me vent - God let me just sob after church yesterday. It was the first time I cried since March.

[sheena7112]

I belive that God has a much better plan then I. I just need to sit and wait not force anything because God will make such a joy in your heart and you didnt have to lift a fingure. It is happening with me too. I am loving the ride. It can get tough sometimes but just put your faith in God and you will be happy with the results. I am very happy for you!!! Kim

[lockharts]

That is so awsome!!!! God knows so much more than we give him credit for... Congratulations!!!!!

[lifessence]

This thread is awesome - thank you everyone!

Praying for a good week filled with wonderful news!!!!

[hannahmelia]

"THY WILL BE DONE" it is truly in His hands.

[lil'bean]

I am in awe as I read - how true this all is & how revealing it is in my own life & journeys!!!

Thank you for reinforcing it all for us & for reminding us that God has a purpose & plan for the valleys that we walk thru or hardships that we endure!!!

GOD BLESS YOU FOR YOUR AWESOME POSTS -

Praying for you all & thank you for your prayers too!