[braedensmommy]

I am feeling down today. I know this may sound crazy but for about a month I had this "feeling" that I would get out of PGN on May 10th. Actually, I lost a baby and when things are very stressful in my life I dream of her. I know these are dreams (actually I truly believe that she is an angel for me), but in my dream my little girl told me that we would get out of PGN on May 10th. I was holding her hand on the beach. (For some reason, we are ALWAYS on a beach) I have been pretty good with waiting but ALL day today I would jump when the phone rang. Now I am sitting at my computer, and feel so hopeless.

[Waiting4Celeste]

Hang in there!
I didn't get the call until last night around 6:30 pm (Central time)
There is still time left in the day!!
I hope you get the call tonight!

[wannabamom]

Braeden's Mommy,

Hello. I'm really sorry that your dream didn't come true. If it's any consolation to you, I really understand how you're feeling, because I too have similar dreams, though your grief must be greater on having lost a child. We all have days like this, and I pray that you get out of this misery soon, and have good news - out of PGN and home with your li'l one soon!!!!
Take care,

[Yelena]

Oh, I feel for you. I usually have good instincts and "feelings", but I think this PGN nightmare has affected them. I don't know why, but I'd had that feeling on May 3. That was the day it was supposed to happen -- I was sure of it! When that day came and went with no calls, I just about lost it. I was ready to give up hope. The rest of the week was absolutely miserable, and I ruined a perfectly good weekend with my self-pity.

I felt totally numb the next Monday morning. I geared up for another week of no calls (at that point, the OUTs were still very few and far between). Then at 11:15, my office phone chirped a double ring -- meaning an outside call. I knew it wasn't DH or my mom -- they've been under strict orders NOT to call me unless it's an emergency! And since I'm not dealing with any outside vendors at work right now, I knew it had to be either my agency or a wrong number. You can see where this is going -- it was my agency with the glorious OUT news.

So my usually reliable gut feelings were off a little bit this time! Stress has a nasty habit of affecting all of us in some way -- physical, emotional, spiritual, and I guess we can add "accuracy of gut feelings" to that list!

It's understandable that you feel down today. But don't give up! You WILL get that call -- and who knows -- maybe you DID get out today, but you just haven't been notified yet! I've seen lots of posts where people got OUT but weren't notified for several days or even weeks.

[apetry26]

Just hang in there...You will get the call.

Angie

[Larue]

I'm very sorry you didn't get the call today. I'm praying that you're out of PGN very soon.

I see in your signature that you'll be going to Guatemala to foster your baby at the end of the month. I am so thrilled for you!

[Kimberj71]

Just wanted to offer a ray of hope. Just because you didn't get the CALL today, does not mean that you were not approved. We didn't find out we were out of PGN until our kids' biological moms had signed the protocols. And that was 4 or 5 days after they were out of PGN.

You're dream may have come true and you just don't know it.

~hugs~
Kim

[JohnnaMJH]

OH I am so sorry. Hang in there, I hope your good news is coming soon!

[shoegirl06]

I'm so sorry you didn't get the call you were needing today!!

Like you, I've experienced a miscarriage - many, in fact. The first of them was the week before Mother's Day and even though it was 4 years ago, I still grieve for those babies I lost.

This year, we have hope in our hearts as our little ones are waiting just that little bit longer until we have them in our arms forever and what a great day that will be!!

Happy Mother's Day to everyone and know that kind thoughts are with you!!

Julie
waiting on Elisabeth

[linda512]

I'm so sorry. This process is so difficult in so many ways. It's hard not to get your hopes up and then it is so hard when they are dashed. I'm having a tough day also. I hope you get good news soon.

[mildredjohn]

Hanging there! it would happen.

[P.E.Z.]

Hey , maybe you are out , but your agency just didn't get the information yet .

[saranbr]

We were out for a week before our agency told us-- but then they didn't tell us much else either. I do hope you get good news soon...

[ej-momtobe]

Sorry to hear that...it would have been wonderful if you had gotten the today....just remember IT WILL COME!!!!

[jlinberger]

wow, what a dream. i am sorry for your sadness today Megan.