[jennifervan]

We got no news.
Infact...I had to talk to my agency today and they did not mention anything about the facilitators visit to PGN. I don't know what happend. Maybe there really wasn't an appointment. We met with our agency in person yesterday so maybe they wanted to have a "good" appointment with us and gave us some good news...I don't know I can't think clearly at this point. But, there has been no mention of such an appointment today and therefore I believe there is no good news headed my way.

I think it will be best for me to take a break from this forum. I have done it in the past and then popped back on when I felt better. I will probably check in for the Platinum Club one time a week.

I just feel at this point that our situation is just so extremely rare- almost surreal. I know there are a few of us out there struggling and people have been so very supportive but it is hard to read post after post about people struggling with waiting a few extra weeks for BC' and pink. There are people who don't even really know what a PGN investigation is...thank goodness for them...for real. I know if I was in your shoes this little waits would bother me too and I would have no concept (no matter how hard I tried) of the amount of wait the few of us really have. For example, I cannot fully grasp the amount of pain Lockharts and Pray4littl1 have right now...though I try to be there for them.

Lately, for me, visiting this place, even amongst all your support, is like visiting a foriegn land. I cannot grasp the amount of OUTs I see flying by. I wouldn't call it jealousy but I would call it confusion and feeling like I am losing anything in common with people at this site.

I know you will see me later, maybe sooner than later, but I got months if not more to go and can''t spend so much time confused.

For us...at this point...I just can't even imagine finishing this up by the fall.

Thanks for all your support and prayers...I can't imagine that many people have prayed for us and nothing. I know God is not a puppet and He does not do our bidding but His will. However, you would think with all the asking we would see some "good in the land of the living".

Take care,
Jennifer

[scotjul2]

Jennifer,

I am so sorry this is so difficult.

Here's hoping that you get some good news really soon. Keep on hanging in there.
Julie

[Niclayson]

I am so sorry for your pain. I wish there was something I could do to take it away. I can only wish you well and send you hugs...your forum friend, Natalie

[hopin4ababy]

I agree that sometimes taking a break is a good thing. Just know that there are many of us who will keep praying for you through it and care about you and your family more than you will ever know. I feel truly blessed to have met you! Blessings, Ali

[momofmng]

Jennifer:

I am so sorry for your pain and understand your need for a break. Know that while you are gone, we will continue to keep you in our prayers. I hope that you receive news very soon. I know you will be shouting it from the rooftops the minute you do and we will be here to celebrate with you.

Sarah

[cnshornsby]

I am soooooo sorry for your pain and confusion. We will continue to pray for you!

[PackGirl]

I'm sorry that you are not being kept in the loop. I hope you can get some answers from those that have them.
Will continue to pray that your investigation will be postitively resolved and your little girl can come home.

[Shoshana]

Jennifer -- my heart and warm thoughts are with you and your family. Please keep taking care of yourself, however you need to. We'll be here when you are ready. I truly hope your case starts moving and pronto!

[Mom2ddb]

I am so sorry you continue to have no news. I totally understand needing to take a break. I hope you come back and shout out your good news so we can celebrate with you!

[MLRJ]

Jennifer- I am hoping that there is just no answer yet. I certainly can understand your need to take a break- you started the process the same time as me and though I had a rough time of it- at least they are home- that is why I keep checking in on you- I know your turn has to be coming. And what a day that will be.

When you have to wait so long and have one problem after the next it is hard to remain positive. Please know that we are here for you to vent if you need to and we are praying for you and when you get good news- Please let us know so we can cheer for you.

HUGS

MLRJ

[Amykk]

Jennifer - I'm so sorry there was no news - although it does sometimes take time to get news from Guatemala. I totally understand that you need a break from this forum, we will still be thinking about you and sending prayers your way.

[KayV]

Jennifer-It does sometimes take a day or two to receive news about meetings that happened today. Maybe you'll hear something tomorrow. But, you're right, taking a break from the forum DOES help sometimes. Some day, it will be your turn to post some good news.

KayV

[Casey677]

I have been following your story. We took two different paths on our adoption journey, but mine was a long road full of heartbreak as well. I now have a beautiful daughter and I know that you will have your babe in your arms as well. My heart goes out to you

[lcpd]

Do what you think is best for yourself. Sometimes enough is enough. I pray that you get that call and that everything is straightened out. I also pray that your mind clears and finds peace. Take care.

[busterleroy]

Jennifer, I understand completely. When Joey's birthmother was missing, we hired an investigator and hoped every day for news. When we did get information, it usually wasn't encouraging. At one point were we told that the most likely possibilities were that she had fled to the U.S or she was dead. Our son's fate was uncertain, I didn't know who to trust and I felt so unbelieveably confused. I stopped visiting this forum during that time because I felt like most folks couldn't relate.

It is hard when so much is out of your control, and all you want to do is protect your child. I will pray for you tonight. Know that many more who do not respond to this thread will be thinking of you as well.