[carrieatltu]

We've been in PGN for almost 4 months, and aside from receiving preapproval haven't heard anything. No KO's no approvals nothing. Our agency checks in with us but its always the same story "Not kicked out, which is good, but still not out" I tell Jasmine about her sister that is going to be her good friend, but sometimes I feel like I don't even have an expectation anymore of when it is going to happen. Its discouraging when I wonder if she'll be here by her birthday, and that's in June!! The agency doesn't seem to think it will be much longer, and I know that she will come when the time is right, but it is so frustrating that some of us have to wait so long.

Anyone else like this?

Carrie
Mom to Jasmine, waiting for Isabel (born 6-3 referred 7/2 in PGN FOREVER!)

[Mom4Nicholas]

I am several months behind you in the process, but I feel like its never going to come to an end either! This is what my agency warned me about - they said that you may not hear something but one a month at best. Its hard to never know when things are going to happen. Things will work out, keep your head up. Just think this gives you more time to prepare for your baby's home coming!

[smmars]

OH Yeah!

I feel like that daily. I think that there is a place in my heart that feels like Matthew will never come home...as if it is too good to be true...as if I don't deserve this precious gift.

These are the times when I need to give it all to God and realize that HIS timing is best. It is just so hard sometimes as these babies get older and older.

Praying for all of us.

[jpfister]

Carrie,

I know exactly how you feel. We have been in PGN for 3.5 months so I'm right there with you! It is especially hard to see people get out after 3 or 4 weeks. It just isn't fair! But then again, life isn't fair.

I will keep you in my prayers. There is nothing I would like more, than to see the people before me, on the PGN list, post that they are out!!

Pleeeeeease Judge Merida, let us long timers out!!!!!!!!

Julie

Carrie, I'm going to PM you.

[jlinberger]

Oh yeah, big time. It's been 4 months now in PGN and 6 weeks since our last resubmission. I totally feel now that I am NEVER EVER going to get him. Is this a dream? Today I had this horrible thought that the PGN was going to deny us adopting him for some reason and how horrible that would be. Your mind just goes to town during this wait.

We are having a conference call with our agency today. We have never talked to the agency contact in Guatemala, and she will be in on the phone conference. I have a list of questions to barrage her with. Not sure if she'll have any answers, but I am going to ask them all anyway!!

This wait is just horrible. I feel like I am on the edge of sanity! Thanks for starting this thread so we can vent.

Hanging together...

[Treasures]

At 32 months into the wait...YES! But it is finally coming to an end for us. It won't be much longer now.

Treasures

[Kesti]

I think all of us have felt like it is not going to end, I sure have as we just completed our second adoption in two years from Guatemala. It will happen and when it does all of the stress that you went thru will soon be forgotten once you look into their eyes

[wannalittlebean]

I know what you all mean. I sometimes feel as though it's never going to happen. It was one month ago today that we got the call of our referral, and the month has dragged beyond belief! I know I have a long way to go, I was just hoping for DNA authorization by now...

I have been trying to prepare her nursery, it makes me feel a little better, a little more real. I still get so sad sometimes and wonder what she is doing. I dream about her every night.

Sorry if I am bringing you all down...having a bit of a down day as another week has come to an end with no updates...

Tracey

[tricecm]

I totally know what that feels like. Our daughter has been home 10 months now, and there were days that I thought we'd never see her. It was 50 weeks from referral to pink slip for us, and the pgn process ran from mid-September through end of January (with 1 ko).

What I can tell you is this------in watching this board for nearly 2 years now there is only one person I've seen whose adoption ended up not happening, and they adopted another child instead. There were some whose adoptions took a long time, and there were some very tear filled frustrating times, but in the end their babies came home.

I say that to tell you that it WILL happen. Your baby will come home. And keep your chin up. Everyone here is pulling for you. We're all looking forward to hearing your case has cleared pgn!

Do something fun this weekend, because it won't be long now!

[foxl]

I was there. I was there for what felt like forever. I know it WASN'T forever ... all I can tell you is the time comes, and all that sadness of waiting somehow telescopes into a short pain. Carrie, and the rest of you still waiting, I hope your time comes SOON! I don't know how I am ever gonna get away from spending hours a day on this forum, if you DON'T!

I am waiting for your good news!

[Annee]

Carrie, today's the first day I've felt that way. We're wondering right now if the embassy has decided to investigate our case. We aren't even submitted yet to the looming Black Hole of PGN.

I'm so sorry that it's happening this way for you, and I'm really looking forward to seeing a "WE'RE OUT!" post from you soon.

[freda]

I'm feeling the same way too. We entered PGN on Oct. 26th.
For a while, all I kept thinking was "When, when, when,...are they going to let us out?
Now all I keep thinking is "Why, why, why...won't they let us out?"
I sure am feeling blue, and then I feel guilty for having those feelings because I should be counting the blessings I already have in my life. I just can't help it Maybe we will all have some good news next week.
Freda
mom to Jackson, Justice and (Jillian in PGN)

[Kimberj71]

Yes! I remember feeling that way so often during the process and our processes were smooth once we finally got our referrals.

There was one person on this forum (I'm blanking on who it was) who always reminded everyone that today you are one day closer to bringing your little one home. I held on to that thought oh so many days during our wait.

Yes, you WILL bring your little one home...YOU WILL...and today, you are one day closer to that magical moment.

Hang in there everyone! ~hugs~

Kim

[Alesanto]

I know exactly what you are feeling!! We have been in PGN since the end of July and k/o six times!! I have actually gotten to the point that when I see someone that i have not spoken to in a while, and I know they are going to ask about the adoption, I go to any length to avoid them or even hide if I have to!!!!

It really is nuts!!! I just pray that one day we will all be able to look back and laugh about how crazy we became while waiting

Lisa

[Romans828]

I felt like that every day for 14 months until my daughter touched ground in the USA. We had so many problems with our case that it was a fight until the very end. I used to think that every person around me would get their child home and it would never happen for me. I didn't even let myself believe it was real until we picked up the pink slip from the Embassy!

You are not alone in how you are feeling. I think every adoptive feeling can say they felt this way at some point during their adoption. It is scary because you don't want to get your hopes up too much, but the truth is, go ahead, get your hopes up! It will happen and your little one will be home soon! I wish I had allowed myself to enjoy the process more, and to daydream about life with my daughter while we were waiting for her.

Good Luck,