[hajeep]

i am so frustrated! as i said before, i heard LAST FRIDAY from a reliable source in guat. that i am approved from pgn. i was so excited. however, i have not heard anything from my agency. i finally told me agency, sue, about my source and what i was told. sue didn't know anything and had not heard anything from attorney. she did ask the attorney about it and was told that the attorney goes to pgn everyday and had not heard anything. i am out or not?? i emailed my source and asked her to go re-check, but i haven't heard back yet. the source is reliable and i have not payed any money up front, etc. i just don't know what to do.
as soon as i heard i was approved, i allowed myself to finally really believe this is happening. i am going to have a son. but now that i have heard nothing i am depressed and back in the denial state. i don't think about it and really don't acknowledge he is out there or that he is really mine.
i guess i am just having a bad day. i am depressed about my husband and depressed about the baby.
sometimes i just don't think i can handle anymore.

[sassafrass]

please please remember that even after you "now for sure" you have exited PGN, It is still the hardest time ever. I waited almost a year to exit PGn and yet the last 6 weeks to get pink was the worst. I lost 15 pounds and had never felt so much depression.
So... not knowing may be causing a little stress but you probably would be stressed anyway.
hang in there. You have been through so much. I can ONLY imagine. This will only make the reunion that much sweeter! I promise it will all be worth it. Have faith and pray.
I will also pray for you and your little one.

Take care!

[DianaPrince]

Aw, (((Heather)))),

I'm so sorry that you're having a hard time. Mateo is out there and really is yours!

Your post made me think of a favorite Emily ****inson poem:

If you were coming in the fall,
I'd brush the summer by
With half a smile and half a spurn,
As housewives do a fly.

If I could see you in a year,
I'd wind the months in balls,
And put them each in separate drawers,
Until their time befalls.

If only centuries delayed,
I'd count them on my hand,
Subtracting till my fingers dropped
Into Van Diemens land.

If certain, when this life was out,
That yours and mine should be,
I'd toss it yonder like a rind,
And taste eternity.

But now, all ignorant of the length
Of time's uncertain wing,
It goads me, like the goblin bee,
That will not state its sting.

For today, right this minute, take a bubble bath, drink a glass of wine, read a good book, call a friend, heck, talk with us some more! Just take care of yourself.

My heart goes out to you. You are so strong; I know you will get through this!

Valerie

[lisainatlanta]

your time line looks great! Your gonna get your son! You gotta believe that!

[Kimberj71]

Heather,

You are SO close now!!! Whether you are in PGN or out of PGN, once you hold your son, it will not matter. It all fades, it all becomes good because it all becomes part of you and your son's story. Oh the joy you will feel!!!

Right now is one of the absolute most difficult waits. You are so so soooo close and yet it feels so so so far away and uncertain. I thought I would go insane those last 2 months waiting for Londy in PGN. And I'm slowly returning to that state with Jeremy. Give me another 2 weeks, max and I'm going to be posting that I'm going crazy with the wait.

You do have a son...Mateo is there and he will be yours. Allow yourself to feel the joy of the anticipation too. You are so strong! You can do this!!!

I will pray for you!

Kim

[Leebert2]

Heather,

I think about your situation all of the time. You inspire me more than you know. I am praying that this adoption will soon be final and I know that many more on this forum are doing the same.

This is going to happen. You have to believe it. You deserve it so much. Hang in there. I am sure that you more than anyone else knows - that we just are not in charge. Things happen the way they do. You are strong and will make it to the end of this adoption. I just believe that. You are going to hear something soon. Have faith! In the meantime, we will all be praying for you.

You are not alone. Keep the faith and in the meantime, please keep coming here for support. We are with you!

All my best,
Lisa

[KENNA'SMOM]

I was told the other day that we are approved, by the Reviewer, it still requires the directors signature and that can take a few weeks sometimes...although just my own thoughts but its been awhile since there was a ton of outs and I feel one comming!

Anyway, maybe you are approved, and just waiting on the signature. My agency wasn't even going to tell me that part it just sorta of came out in conversation.

I hope that helps. I have been on cloud nine for the last 5 days since I heard that and I keep hopeing that we will hear something any day now.

So, right now we are not OUT of PGN but we are approved awaiting signature, that is probably where you are right now.

[becky]

I think Kim is probably right. You aren't 'technically' out of PGN until the director has signed-off...so that is why your attorney has not contacted the agency. I know that the Director has quite a few cases waiting to be signed off on right now...some have been waiting more than 2 weeks. So...you have probably been approved by your reviewer and you are just awaiting a signature.

You really are very close, it will be over soon and you do have GREAT timeline...so hang in there, your son will be home soon.

Good Luck!

[Kristin Cheek]

I can empathize with you! We went into PGN on May 10th, and we are biting our nails waiting for our new little Anna Catherine! I had hoped to be traveling in June, but now it looks like it might be later. I know each case is unique and we must be patient, but it is hard, especially at this stage. Our first child, Ryan, was adopted from Guatemala two years ago. His adoption went much faster, so I have learned through this second adoption to not compare the timelines! Hopefully you will have your baby soon...we are hopeful too! Hang in there!