[KittyMay]

Emma,
I am so sorry about your bmom. My heart goes out to you. You were not wrong to want to look. It's your choice and anyone who discourages that is sticking their nose where it doesn't belong. Please keep writing and sharing your feelings, and know that there are people out there that care for you.
Kitty

[emmacj]

Hi guys, just a quick update,
I'm moving back in with my adoptive parents as of tomorrow. I desperately don't want to, but some reasons have come to head that mean I can't stay by myself anymore.
I'm not sure how I feel about moving back. I know I can't stay by myself, but moving in with them is something that I didn't want to do at this point in time. I needed some time away from them in order to get things sorted out with how I feel. I'm not allowed to have feelings at home.
I feel stuck. I don't know what else I can do. There's no-one else who I can turn to for this problem, it's something that immediate family needs to deal with. I don't know that I have any other choice.
I feel almost bombarded. When do the hurdles end???

[ripples]

Originally Posted by emmacj

Hi guys, just a quick update,
I'm moving back in with my adoptive parents as of tomorrow. I desperately don't want to, but some reasons have come to head that mean I can't stay by myself anymore.
I'm not sure how I feel about moving back. I know I can't stay by myself, but moving in with them is something that I didn't want to do at this point in time. I needed some time away from them in order to get things sorted out with how I feel. I'm not allowed to have feelings at home.
I feel stuck. I don't know what else I can do. There's no-one else who I can turn to for this problem, it's something that immediate family needs to deal with. I don't know that I have any other choice.
I feel almost bombarded. When do the hurdles end???

I can understand how you feel caught in a bind between not wanting to return to your parents' place and yet having reasons that mean that you can't stay by yourself. Without knowing the actual reasons as to why you have to move back to your parents' place, rather than to another friend's place, all I can say is again I urge you to seek some sort of professional emotional support as it sounds like you're in a very tough emotional bind as well as a logistical bind (i.e. job and shelter). Would perhaps someone in your extended family who's at least trustworthy and sympathetic be a possibility for you to stay somewhere?

If you absolutely have nowhere to go, and you must return to your parents' place, all I can suggest is that you do whatever you can to keep your calm in dealing with your folks. Your mom may try to 'bait' you, accuse you, try to stir up a fight, whatever - just hang in there and try not to react, maybe just say "I hear you and I respect your position. However, in the meantime, I hope you can respect the fact that I need some rest, peace and quiet" and do what you can to avoid confrontation. And in the meantime, at least you can turn to this web site for emotional support. If your family situation gets just waaay too out of hand, then again, I'd seek some sort of family counsellor to help out. The last thing that you need is to be out on the streets when you're so emotionally vulnerable.

Hang in there, Emma!