[MomofKaden]

Stacy,
Well, I guess life does just keep moving along whether we want it to sometimes or not, doesn't it?! I have had plenty of mornings just like you describe...can't hardly will myself to get up and get moving. I guess that is what depression is like, only with me it comes and goes pretty easily (you know something hard happening and so I feel sad for a couple of days or a week or something) - I feel such empathy for those who are actually clinically depressed and don't have the joy like I do of knowing that "this too shall pass."
Any idea where you and your DH will go from here? Were there any other profiles at all that appealed to you? Any younger children perhaps, that haven't been through as much as that poor, sweet girl? I am hoping that something comes up for you soon.

Cathy,
I so appreciate your positive tone! I only hope to be as strong and positive when we go into our next adoption! I find hope in you that the second will be less stressful than the first...I just wasn't sure I could do that again! It wasn't that our situation wasn't wonderful because it was, but the stress of it all still just eats you alive! I am not ready to do it all again...all those what-ifs! In our case, the bmom was wonderful but the bfather was in the picture and threatening and always at the edge of causing a problem, but never quite caring enough to actually do it - it was nerve racking...we knew that Christ had a plan and that no one could ruin His will, but still, this bfather was pretty stressful calling our house often and we wondered up until the week before Kaden was born that he could file for paternity, etc...anyway, my point is that although I hardly think of any of that now that I have this wonderful boy in my arms, I guess I am still a little gun shy to go through the emotional roller coaster again, so your steadfastness is encouraging to me. I just can't imagine that God will have another child out there that is so obviously meant to be ours...isn't it a faith builder? It sure was for us.

Thanks both of you for sharing...it is fun to be kept posted.

[melon161]

Good Morning,

Nothing really new to report. Last night I was scrapbooking like crazy. (I just finished our wedding book and now am starting on trips and stuff like that) I got some new paper yesterday and that was very exciting!!! (I know I'm a freak. LOL)

It's Thanksgiving this weekend (in Canada) so a big family get-together. That'll be nice. I have to make perogies so that'll take all day Saturday. It's such a big job but worth it.

I have to go to a funeral today. I hate funerals (I guess nobody likes them). A friend from my teens commited suicide. Suicide is so hard to deal with. When I was 14 another friend did the same and I still have trouble with it. You just never understand, and you're questions are never answered but it's hard to stop asking. I just don't know what could be so bad that you have to take your own life. I don't know because I've never had to negotiate life with myself. I've just always known that it'll all be worth it in the end and the bad times will pass.

Anyway, that's a little to depressing for this early in the morning. So I'll tell you a little story that made me happy: When Erin's social worker phoned me to see if we were going to proceed with the adoption and I told her that we had decided not to, this is what she said: "I'm sad that I won't be working with you because you and Stacey are a great couple and I know that you will make great parents. I was impressed with you guys and wanted you to know that you presented yourselves very well in the meetings and asked all the right questions. The next social worker you have will be lucky to work with you."

I thought that was very nice and it was nice to hear at such a tough time, it lightened things up a little.

Well after this depressing post, I hope everybody can still have a good day.

Stacy

[MomofKaden]

poor you Stacy...you are having a rough spell aren't you?! Suicide is SO tough...a friend of my husband's committed suicide while we were all in college and that was really hard and wierd...fortunately for us, we weren't very close friends, so it didn't hit us quite as hard as it could have, but still, it was tough and the memorial service was really hard. I don't envy you today. It is so hard for us, with healthy minds, to understand suicide...I think people's minds just get so sick that they can't see any way out of their pain...it is so sad. I thank God that my mind is clear and he has given me joy...I don't know what your beliefs are, but I have been thinking a lot lately about a bible verse that I think sums me up just right "I will praise the Lord for He has dealt bountifully with me." I just feel so blessed...and it is in tough times like you are going through, and trust me, before Kaden was born we had some pretty tough spots ourselves, where I didn't know what else to do, I just had to trust that God had a plan. And now that I see His plan completed and this little boy asleep in his crib beside me that I can tell you - He has dealt bountifully with me.

Based on your great interview with Erin's SW, I can only assume that you will make that same impression on the SW of YOUR child...I anxiously await that day - when you can share in the adoptive mom's joy!

Bless you today! Hope you make it alright through that funeral. and have a Happy Canadian Thanksgiving! ha! We still have to wait 1 1/2 months for ours!

[NanaMarie]

Stacy, My thoughts are with you today .. its always hard to go to funerals.

sounds like you made a great impression on the SW though which is good.

Put aside your worries and have a great Thanksgiving. Those perogies sound great!!! Want to send some this way?

Hugs. Marie

[melon161]

Hi jessica and Marie,

Thanks for your thoughts and well wishes. I know that I'm going to a funeral and everything but I am in a good mood today and feeling good. That'll probably change once I get there.

Thanksgiving is what I'm looking forward too, so much family, so much fun, AND SO MUCH FOOD!!! MMMMMMMM.....

I can't wait. I'll send some perogies but I'm not sure if they'll still be good when they reach you. LOL

I got a phone call about an hour ago and it was a girl I used to work with and she phoned to tell me she just drove by and my lights were on in my car. I ran outside to shut them off and tried to start the car but it was dead. LOL LOL LOL I phone my brother to come boost me and he did but he was making fun of me, you see I leave my lights on at least 6 times a year and he's always the one the comes to my rescue. Thank God for him. I don't think I'll ever live it down. ha ha ha. We both work for my dad's trucking company, I work in the office and he's a mechanic so it's just easier to phone him then to drag my husband away from work. And thankfully my brother is really patient with me. Again I just have to laugh. LOL

Alright, well that's my adventure of the morning. Anyone else have an adventurous day so far?

Stacy

[cathy102]

Hello all,

Sorry to hear that you have to go to a Funeral today, Stacy. I don't like them at all.

I'm not doing too much today. Kind of being lazy. Lexi is at my MIL's for the night, so I have just been playing on the computer..

Need to get ready to run some errands..I will check in later..

Have a good day,

Cathy

[melon161]

Good Morning,

The funeral was very very sad as I knew it would be. It was very hard to see his family, they were not doing very well. The Reverand did such a good job, he was just so amazing in the words he said, I'm sure he touched everyone's heart.

His best friend did the Eulogy and he did so great. It was so hard watching them all suffer so much, I felt so bad for them.

Well, enough of the sad talk, I'm all talked out about that, I can't handle it anymore. My best friend, Melissa, phoned me last night and told me that she had just had the best job interview in her life. She was so excited, I really hope she gets this job. She finished school in May but she was 8 months pregnant so she didn't look for a job and then she had the baby and he passed away 17 hours after he was born so she took as much time as she needed before she started looking for work. She's a single mom of 2 other boys so she really needs to have some good luck go her way.

I went for coffee last night with my friend shannon and we hadn't seen each other in so long it was so nice to get together and just chat it up. We didn't realize how late it was getting because before we new it, it was 10:30.

Well, that was my day yesterday. Nothing to exciting, sorry I'm not more entertaining. I'll try harder next time. LOL

Have a good day everyone,

Stacy

P.S. Hi Cathy, Jessica and Marie!

[NanaMarie]

Hi Stacy,
Its always nice to catch up with friends. I hope your friend gets the job she interviewed for sounds like she has had a rough year so far. I personally hate job interviews, even hated them when I was the one doing the interviewing. LOL

Yesterday was A's first birthday but I'm not sure who was more excited with her presents as the other two seem to be playing with them more than she is. We baked a chocolate cake together and then decorated it with coloured sugar and mini m & m's. About fell off my chair laughing when I saw their faces after they had eaten a slice. It was so funny .. thank goodness it was bath time right after supper and they cleaned up and put pj's on without any fuss.

today I am still cleaning up cake on the kitchen floor .. and its been washed twice already. LOL oh well, we had fun and thats more important than a little bit of cake on the floor.

Today has been quiet in comparison for which I am thankful .. have to work tonight so its been nice to rest when they were napping.

Can't wait to taste those perogies.

Hugs to all.

Marie

[melon161]

Marie,

If you send me some cake, I'll send you those perogies!!

I'm so glad it's Thursday. It's TV night!!! I love Thursday, only one more day until Friday. This Friday we are having our first Clothing Club meeting of the year. I'm so excited!!! I'll explain: There are 10 girls whoo get together once a month and put $30 in a month. Once a month someone's name gets picked out and they get $300 to spend on themselves and only themselves. You can buy clothes or get your hair done or a manicure or anything you want, just as long as it's for you. Then the next month the person who one the month before hosts the party and we do things like have a margarita night or go play pool or have a fiesta night. It's really fun and you get $300 just to spend on yourself. Once your name is picked you can't win again until the new round starts so everyone gets a chance to win.

I hope my name gets picked on Friday!

There's not much new on the adoption front. My sister and my aunty told me that they are throwing a dance for us to raise the money to pay the adoption agency. We were going to get a loan but it's very very nice that they're willing to do this for us and so we won't have anything to pay back. If they raise more then we need then we'll donate the rest to the Dave Thomas Adoption Charity. I'm really happy that they're doing this for us. The plans are pretty much just in the works right now so I don't really know anything about what's going to happen and when.

Anyway, I should run, but first:

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!

Have a good day.

P.S. Cathy my thoughts and prayers are with you today and I'll keep my fingers crossed!

Stacy

[mckenna]

i just have to say that i am going to steal your idea!! what fun my friend and i could really use this. i hope you win too, what a nice pick me up that would be. my friends and i are going to a winery tomorrow, i am going to suggest we start this tradition.

[melon161]

mckenna,

I don't mind you stealing it, it truly is really really fun, a night with the girls and a lot of pampering for yourself. WooHoo!!!

Hope your girlfriends go for it.

Stacy

[cathy102]

Hey Stacy,

Sounds like your get together with your friends like a great time..I hope you win this week...

Well, I should be getting a call in a few hours to see if we were matched.. I will let you know when I hear something out..If this is not it, something will come soon, I feel that in my gut!!!

Have a great day,

Cathy

[MomofKaden]

OH WOW CATHY - I am waiting in baited breath! Please post when you know!

Stacy, have fun this weekend - hope it's your lucky day!

Jessica
Ok, what are perogies????

[NanaMarie]

Hey Stacy ... Just sent some b-cake your way .. enjoy .. chocolate upon chocolate.

Hope your name is picked this week. what a great idea sounds like a lot of fun. Will keep my fingers crossed.

Cathy .. waiting to hear what happened today. Hope the news was positive but either way you know that the decision is God's plan for your family and things happen on his timetable not ours.

Take care all ... baby crying gotta go.

Marie

[cathy102]

Well, girls!!! We were not mathced with S. But that is ok. The only reason she chose the other couple is because they don't have any kids. I don't blame S for choosing them. I know what it is like to want a baby so bad..

They did tell me that we will be shown again soon to a expectant mom. She will need some financial support. She will be emailing me in a few days to give all the details to see if we are comfortable with that...I will keep you posted...

Thanks for all your prayers!!! Our baby will find us soon!!! I just know it!!!

Hugs,

Cathy