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ABOUT 2 YEARS AGO MY EX-BOYFRIEND DIED. HE HAS 2 CHILDREN. ONE IN JAIL AND THE OTHER WAS STAYING WITH ME. SHE GOT PREGNANT. SHE TOLD ME SHE DIDN'T WANT THE BABY. SHE HAD THE BABY, BUT 2 MONTHS LATER DECIDED TO START HANGING OUT, DRINKING, DRUGS AND BE WITH DIFFERENT MEN. SHE KEPT HAVING ACCIDENTS WITH THE BABY. LIKE DROPPING HIM, HITTING HIS HEAD ON THEWALL. SHE IS VERY CARELESS WITH HIM. WHEN SHE IS HOLDING HIM, SHE IS NOT PAYING ANY ATTENTION TO HIM. SHE MISHANDLES HIM, SHE PICKS HIM UP BY ONE ARM. SHE ALSO GETS MAD AND TAKES HER ANGER OUT ON HIM. YEARS AGO, I FOUND OUT THAT SHE WAS MENTALLY RETARDED. RIGHT NOW, I HAVE SOLE LEGAL AND PHYSICAL CUSTODY OF HIM BECAUSE OF THESE ACCIDENTS SHE IS HAVING AND STILL TO THIS DAY IS STILL HAVING ACCIDENTS WITH HIM. IT'S BEEN A YEAR AND HE HAS BEEN SO ATTACHED TO ME. SOMETIMES WHEN HIS BIO MOTHER COMES TO SEE HIM, HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE BOTHER BY HER. SHE GETS ANGRY BECAUSE OF THAT. SHE IS OFF BALANCE AND SHE HAS AN ANGER PROBLEM.

AFTER ALL THESE ACCIDENTS, I TALKED TO SOMEONE, WHO ENDED UP CALLING CPS ON US, BUT I'M GLAD THAT SHE DID. THEY TOLD IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO THE BABY IN MY HOUSEHOLD THAT WE ALL WOULD GO TO JAIL. I TOOK CHARGE OF THE BABY. THE STATE TRIED TO TAKE HIM BUT I TALKED HER INTO GIVING ME CUSTODY OF HIM UNTIL SHE GETS HERSELF SOME HELP. SO FAR NOTHING HAS HELPED. SHE IS NOT TRYING TO HELP HERSELF. I SUPERVISE HER VISITS IN MY HOME. IT HAS BEEN A WHOLE YEAR AND THEN SOME AND NOTHING HAS CHANGED. SHE IS IRRESPONSIBLE, UNRELIABLE AND A BIG LIAR. SHE IS NOT TRYING TO CHANGE. SOMETIMES OFFERS ME MONEY TO TAKE CARE OF HIM. IF SHE WAS SHE WOULD BE HANDLING HIM MORE CAREFUL. SHE STILL MISHANDLES HIM AND I HATE TO SEE HER DO THAT, SOMETIMES I HAVE TO TAKE HIM AWAY FROM HER BECAUSE OF THE WAY SHE HOLDS HIM. SHE SAYS SHE LOVES HIM, BUT IF YOU LOVE YOUR CHILD SO MUCH AS YOU SAY YOU DO, YOU WOULD DO JUST ABOUT ANYTHING TO CHANGE. THE FATHER TOLD HER THAT HE DOESN'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH HER OR THE BABY. HE DOESN'T BELIEVE THE BABY IS HIS BECAUSE SHE HAS CHEATED ON HIM SO MANY TIMES.
SHE HAS MADE NO EFFORT TO CHANGE. SHE HAS TOLD ME THAT SHE DOESN'T CARE WHAT THE COUNSELOR OR CPS PEOPLE OR CASE WORKER SAYS, SHE IS STILL GOING TO DO WHATEVER SHE WANTS TO HER BABY. I WANT TO ADOPT HIM. WHAT ARE MY CHANCES OF ADOPTING HIM. I WANT TO KEEP HIM PERMANTLY. WHAT CAN I DO.