[srhbj]

Sandra - We're all still here praying for you and this mother. I know how hard the wait can be. Just try to keep yourself busy and keep praying.

[nikkianni]

Sandra: Hang in there. If waiting a few more days (as long as they're going to seem) will mean that pbmom is sure of her decision, then it'll be worth it in the long run.
I agree on the Ben & Jerry's BTW. Phish Food makes everything better.

[4everwaiting]

Thanks guys!

Of course I'm not upset with the mother, I want her to be sure of her decision. Believe me we have been down this road before almost like de-ja-vue it seems. However, the hanging in limbo is the hardest part of this whole ordeal. If yes we would be elated, if no we would mourn but find closure some way. But the not knowing, that's tough!

Yes a glass of wine helped, didn't "do" the icecream, but rented a couple of movies to escape and go somewhere else if only for a couple of hours, gave us a break...

I just wonder, is God trying to tell us something... First the years of IF, then years of waiting. If so I can handle it- we have a good live just dh and I, we just wanted to share our lives with someone... It would be nice to know the plan so we can say, ok we get it, we understand... sorry for ranting, but feel a bit confused, frustrated and very doubtful.

[jjlutefisk]

Your last post just reminded me of how I was feeling about 2 years ago today. I was defeated. I had lost hope. I started to wonder what the heck was going on and if there was a conspiracy against us, too. And then a few weeks later the phone rang and changed everything. I just wanted you to know I've been in your shoes. But the darkest night makes the brightest day seem brighter when it comes.

Take care of yourself and listen to your emotions. They are very valid. Hugs to you!

[Nevada Jen]

I was thinking the exact same thing. We had a couple of situations like yours kind of going at the same time and when they both fell through I was really questioning things. Just when we were ready to give up on adoption we got a baby born call and it was clear as day that that had been the plan all along. I can even remember thinking, if DS's bmom had just made an adoption plan a week before she gave birth, I would have had a lot less heartache in my life. I know its easy for me to say from this end (really I do) but it will happen and the timing will be perfect (even if you can't tell that at the time). Hang in there.

[Amber76]

When our daughter died just a few days after we visited her in Guatemala, I was just sure that it was God's final answer that we were not ever supposed to be parents. (We'd already had to stop the homestudy process once before because my sister and niece were killed in an accident and we decided to take in my teen nephews.) I was so sure that I was ready to pack it all up. But, DH convinced me to try domestic for six months and see what happened. I'm so glad I listened to him and we ended up with our son. I hope that you will soon be holding the baby God has for you as well. Take care of yourself!

[mommieof2cuties]

Still praying and hoping for this to work out in the way that is best for everyone...

Hugs and God Bless,
Summer

[nikkianni]

Oh Sandra, don't think for a minute you're not meant to be a mom. Of course you are! In your heart you're already there.
The thing is there is one, just one, child out there for you. Meant to be the child you raise and love for the rest of your life. You're not waiting on a social worker or a piece of paper or any of those other things we get wrapped up in. What you're really waiting for is for that little person to be ready for you.
On the day you meet him or her you'll understand. You'll know that if any of these other situations had worked out, you wouldn't have this perfect little person in your life. And that won't bear thinking about.
But until that day......adoption stinks. Hang in there and with any luck this Friday will bring good news.

[devildogwife]

Sandra, I'm sorry you're so discouraged. But you are MOST definitely meant to be a mom. It's going to happen.

[journeytolily]

Sandra, did the potential bmom make her decision?? I am still hoping it works out for you, but if not, don't give in to despair - you WILL become a mother.

[4everwaiting]

PBM is supposed to give her answer tonight... Hoping for the best, but staying grounded this time! It will be what it will be, it's the only way i can keep my sanity...


Thank you all for checking in! The pms, the prayers and the well wishes have been greatly appreciated during this loonnnggg wait!

I will keep you all posted as i know something!

(((Hugs)))

Sandra

[lovemy2boys]

Just remember:

If He'll lead you to it, He'll lead you through it.

Thinking of you...

[devildogwife]

Hope you hear soon, one way or the other.

[binkybear]

Thinking and praying for you all. Keep us posted!

[Leigh131313]

wishing the best....and waiting along with you!