[startedover]

Lovemyboys
Don't fret. If we are focused the hardest month of the year, then even if we don't lose BIG amounts, we will have a start for after the holidays. GO US!

[lovemy2boys]

Thanks, startedover. I'm just feeling so overwhelmed...

How did I get here??? I mean, I know how I got here, but how could I LET myself get here?

Even the small goals seem so out of reach...I exercise, then sabotage myself by eating junk...

I don't want to be the fat mom...I don't want to be the fat wife...I don't want to be the fat WOMAN!!

But I just can't seem to stop myself! I mean, if I needed to lose 15 or 25 or even 55 pounds, I could say "ok - there's the light at the end of the tunnel".

I can't see the light right now. And the holidays and the stress I'm under right now make it even worse.

Sorry to dump, guys...just really feeling down.

[startedover]

We will be fine. I have as much to you and if we are the only two people on here losing .0002 pounds a week. WE WILL KEEP TRUCKING.

[feelingreyt]

Originally Posted by lovemy2boys

Thanks, startedover. I'm just feeling so overwhelmed...

How did I get here??? I mean, I know how I got here, but how could I LET myself get here?

Even the small goals seem so out of reach...I exercise, then sabotage myself by eating junk...

I don't want to be the fat mom...I don't want to be the fat wife...I don't want to be the fat WOMAN!!

But I just can't seem to stop myself! I mean, if I needed to lose 15 or 25 or even 55 pounds, I could say "ok - there's the light at the end of the tunnel".

I can't see the light right now. And the holidays and the stress I'm under right now make it even worse.

Sorry to dump, guys...just really feeling down.

It's so hard not feel discouraged when you have so much weight to lose. Believe me, I know.
I also wonder how I let myself get so heavy. The person in the mirror is not me. That can NOT be the way I look, it's not the way I think I look. KWIM?

I finally got tired of being the fat woman in the room. The fat mom, the fat wife, just like you said you felt. I got tired of walking into a room and looking around to see if there was possibly anyone there heavier than me.

In April 07, I made a decision to finally be healthy. Since then I have lost 63lbs. It has NOT been easy. There have been weeks when I gained instead of lost. But the losing weeks far outweighed the other weeks because I did not/have not let myself get discouraged this time.

As you know, we just lost my MIL due to cancer. It has been a long stressful month, to say the least. I have gained 6 lbs and have not been able to budge those pounds. Talk about a major rut!

That was until this week! I have lost 4lbs and now have 2 more to go! To me, that is a major accomplishment and gives me the encouragement I need to lose the rest of the 53 lbs I have to go. YEP, 53 more lbs. And thats after I finally lose the last 2 I regained! So you see, it can be done. You can do this. WE can do this. It won't be easy, it won't be fun, but the end results will be so worth it! With the encouragement from fellow AMOMS, hearing about their losses, feeling and seeing your fat cells melt away(get ready to go shopping girl, your gonna need some smaller clothes!!!) and most importantly, with the help from GOD, YOU can and YOU WILL become a healthier you!!!!!

[lovemy2boys]

Thanks, guys. It's very hard because I'm just not the person I used to be...I HATE running into old friends...and I never want to go out...

My DH gets so mad because we always get invites from his friends, and I just can't bring myself to go out with them...It seems like every time I see them, I'm 30 pounds heavier! But he's part of the problem...He's the fast food king...and ALWAYS finds a way to bring it into the house. Thank God I've managed to keep the kids away from it, seeing as they don't really like fast food anyway.

I just know now is the time to lose it. I just have to make a ton of lifestyle changes.

Thanks for the support guys...I really needed it!

[startedover]

For those of us who are little "healthier" when we step on the scale. Maybe that's not right word, but those of us who have 50 plus to lose (I have between 80 and 90) it looks impossible. But it is not. I lost almost this much 5 years ago and believe I would have kept it off , had I not opened my own business and started eating every meal out. Here is my suggestion. Make your first goal about 10 percent. That is when everyone will start to notice. I remember when I lost my first 20 pounds I was starting to feel Like I wasn't going to be able to make it, when all the sudden People started noticing. So that will get you motivated again.

[lovemy2boys]

Thanks for the advice, guys! And you're right - we'll do this together...

[loveajax]

Love, I soooooo get what you are saying.

I honestly am a "thin person" trapped in a fat person's body. I was always the skinny one in my family, in college, etc. And then, it's been like a steady climb of gaining 5 lbs/year for the last 12-13 years. Even though I want to lose 50 lbs, I really SHOULD lose 80 lbs...I just can't even bring myself to type that because it seems so far away.

What I like about WW is that they are really focused on the first 10 percent. And I did it a couple of years ago and even though I was by no means thin, people were noticing/commenting, etc. (I remember leaving a hair salon and even having a guy whistle! haha...that hadn't happened in 10 years!).

I am a total self-sabatager (I know that is not a word). So let's all try to stick together. I assume I will have a gain this week (or at least not a big loss) and in the past, I have let that make me feel like, "oh, well, it's over...no can do!" I don't want to do that again!!!

the other funny thing is look at posts you wrote here a year ago....it's really not that long ago....now think about losing 1-2 lbs for each of those 52 weeks!!

Ok, anyway, your post really resonated with me....we can do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You guys are really motivating me!

[feelingreyt]

Originally Posted by loveajax

I am a total self-sabatager (I know that is not a word). So let's all try to stick together. I assume I will have a gain this week (or at least not a big loss) and in the past, I have let that make me feel like, "oh, well, it's over...no can do!" I don't want to do that again!!!

I am a self-sabatager as well. I think that word only exsists for us that understand it, LOL!

Together we can do this!!!!

[GoddessDanu]

Well, I weighed myself this morning and I've lost 1.5 lbs! It may seem like a little bit but I heard somewhere that for every one pound of weight you lose, you take four pounds of pressure of your knees. I feel good about that!

I hope everyone else is having a good Monday.

[loveajax]

YIPPEE, GODDESS!!!!! Awesome job!!!

Well, Feeling, we could have named ourselves the A.SSes: Amom Self Sabatagers...heehee! Probably agains the rules though!!

[lovemy2boys]

great job goddess!

And you're right about it taking a pound of pressure off your knees. Great way to look at it!

[devildogwife]

A year ago I was very happily a size 2. When Cameron went in for his 2nd long stay (the 4-month-one) I gained about 30 pounds. I was so stressed. Seriously, wondering every day if your child is going into heart failure and needing to go on the transplant list wasn't conducive to me taking great care of myself. I ate Dairy Queen almost every night and didn't work out. I'm back to working out again, but my eating is still pretty bad half the time. I am definitely a self-saboteur also! Anyway, I joined WW online too. My first goal is down 10 pounds by Christmas, and down 40 overall by the summer, to fit into my old (cute skinny) clothes.

[loveajax]

welcome, DDW!!!! and yes, i can imagine the "stress eating"...i haven't had anywhere near as much stress and I relate!

[startedover]

I am going to weigh tom, because of a full day today.
Can anyone figure out if we can post our loses in a "poll" format?