[poullafouca]

Why, oh, why, For the past, I don't know how long I have been having this conversation with God in my head, it goes like this,
"Please God, please, if we are going to be able to adopt a second time, please, please make it soon."

I am home, sick in bed today, with an overwhelming workload looming. I was making a ginger tea in the kitchen this morning and once again, I had that conversation with God.

My DH and I arent spring chickens, and we want to offer our best to our son, whom we adopted from birth in Jan 2005, we really want a sibling for him, a little girl, mixed race..
So, after all those prayerys, our adoption lawyer called, he wanted to know were we interested in twin baby girls, mixed race, born last night.

DH and I talked, and we talked, and we can't do it. I have to work, DH has to work, and he works very long hours. We considered it, we'd have to have a live-in helper, obviously I'd have to take a few months off, we aren't really ready for that.

We had to say no. It was hard. I know that the little girls will be okay, I just wish that we could have said yes, that we had the kind of life that I could get on a plane today and bring home twin girls.

ay ay ay

Poulla

[redbonec]

I am so sorry!It must have been agonizing to try and decide.
Best wishes for you the one you are waiting for.

[mj77]

Poulla, even if you were offered one now, wouldn't you need to take time off to bond?

We turned down 2 newborn babies this year. My older son's bmom had a baby then my younger son's bmom had one! Less than 5 mo. apart. It broke my heart today saying no (just today to the second). The timing wasn't right. So, I can understand some of your frustration. I am just so affraid of not having info for my son on his bbrother. I, like you am confident he will go to the right family.

I'm sorry for your frustration.

MJ

[poullafouca]

Hey MJ, Of course I would take time off, and I am truly blessed to have a very fruitful freelance career, so I can generally play it so I get plenty of time with my little one. Twins just seem like such an overwhelming thought; I know how demanding one little one is, but two, and with a toddler who needs us and our attention so much, combine that with a relationship still adjusting to being three not two, and it just wasn't fair to anyone.

I can imagine how desperately hard it must be to say no to a baby that is related to your little ones, I think that is much harder than my decision yesterdayy.

Bless you.

Poulla

[SanInUtah]

So sorry !!!! I'll pray for the twins