[Sleepydream]

Greeniiiz - Welcome!! Waiting is tough in general, with children who are identified and you already have a bond with only makes it harder....just ask Felicia! I will add you and your family to my prayers.

DDW - So glad to hear he is continuing to fight. What a little soldier! I hope you are able to hold him soon, I would be antsy with anticipation if I were in your shoes I'm sure!

[SuzBerg]

DDW - I am so happy to read your post. That is great news that he is getting off the vent (I always feel so much better when Em is extabated). I know it's a long road so celebrate each little step. I also know how hard it is to leave the hospital at night but you need to get your sleep so YOU can stay strong. I don't know your situation but I wanted to suggest you look into Ronald McDonald House if they have one at your Children's Hospital (and if you even need it). It helped us out a lot last month.

If you have any questions about HLHS, having a kiddo in the hospital or just want to talk to someone who is in similar circumstances please PM me. You continue to be in our prayers. Hugs - Suz

[Leigh131313]

Greeniiz WELCOME! I do think that KNOWING which child you hope will join your family - yet having to wait - is MUCH harder. There's that whole, every day is another day he could have been with you thing. It must be very difficult for you. Are things progessing well?? Is there alot of hope that this WILL work out?


DDW - I'm so happy to hear Cameron is still doing so well!! ((hugs))

[KarynB]

Greeniiz - Glad to see you found this thread as these ladies are a wonderful support while you wait! Even though I am no longer waiting, I stick around (even though they've tried to get rid of me) because now I need to find out how everyone else is doing!

DDW - So glad to hear Cameron continues to improve - when is his next surgery scheduled for? Can you tell us how his first mom is doing? If he is a week old already, does this mean TPR is only a few days away? Continuing to send out good thoughts for you.....

Leigh - how are you? Anything new with you?

Felicia - I continue to read about your struggles to bring L home - man you guys are fighters! he is SO lucky to have you guys who continue to fight for him - hang in there!

[Celesyee]

I haven't been online since Friday early morning and am ecstatic of Cameron's progress. What a fighter! I'll continue to keep him, birth family, and you/DH in my hopes, dreams, prayers, and thoughts.

[missw005]

Karyn - girl, if you try to leave you KNOW I will come and find you.....

DDW - Yay Cameron!!!!! Can't wait to hear all about you and DH getting to hold him......WOOO HOOOOOO!!!

Tigger - Baby dust coming your way...................

Greeniiiiiz - It is extremely more difficult when you're waiting for kids you've gotten to know......(((((((hugs)))))) to you girl!!!

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I'm having quite the yucky weekend. I'll apologize in advance for venting so long.........

On Friday J got sent to the principal's office for grabbing his aide and yanking her into the classroom. He was therefore grounded and spent the rest of the evening being nasty to Q and I and making our lives miserable.

Saturday morning I was awoken at 5:30!!! by the boys who could not be quiet. I told them it was 5, to go back to their own rooms and go back to sleep. Within 15 minutes, J got up, went back into Q's room and proceeded to start playing and yelling. We then all got up to do chores, which they naturally had to do since I was waaaaaay too tired to do them. I got my bathroom, kitchen and dining room floors scrubbed nicely with Clorox wipes. The big rug in the living room also had all the lint, crumbs and whatnot removed BY HAND by Q. They also were grounded for the day and lost tv privileges (which was a shame since I'd arrived at the library early Friday morning to pick out several nice kids movies they hadn't seen yet) as well as gum/treats.

At 8:30 I was ready to leave for the baby shower, but somehow the babysitter thought that when I said be here at 8:30 that meant I would pick her up and bring her over here at 8:30. Too bad I flunked that mindreading class. By the time I got the boys' shoes/coats/hats on, I was in no mood for foolishness. I picked her up, brought them back to the house and didn't even get out of the car. My babysitter did ask if a friend she was having a sleepover with later could come by the last 1/2 hour she was babysitting for me. I said yes.......and this would become my demise later on.

I drove an hour, picked up a fellow teacher who was also going to the baby shower, and we drove another hour and arrived at the shower almost a half hour early. Oops! The shower was fun, everything was great until we had to leave......turns out the curse of being early is that everybody parks behind you, so you can't leave until they all do. Naturally one of the older teachers did NOT leave until a half hour AFTER the shower ended, although I'd asked for her keys a couple times to move her car, my friend who was hosting it finally threw the keys to me herself so we could get going - it's a 2 hour ride home for me. Ugh.

Dropped my friend off, went to Target ALL BY MYSELF (wow! that hasn't happened for awhile - WOW!!!) and went home. I arrived to chaos. Apparently 1 friend coming over the last half hour meant TWO friends coming over the last 3 hours of babysitting. There was a big mess in the kitchen, my good towels were covered with spaghetti sauce from the Chef Boyardee I left out for lunch (naturally, she can't cook and can only nuke food), and there was an odd smell in the house........
I dropped the 3 girls off as it was getting late, came back home, and the truth began rearing its' ugly head. J admitted they'd been playing hide-n-go-seek all over the house, and perhaps they'd been in my room. I went in to discover they'd knocked over the closet rod, and had picked it back up (though now my pants were all dusty) - and had knocked down my storage shelves with all my sweaters.............and LEFT IT ALL ON THE FLOOR.
Uh-huh.
I then checked out Q's room - messy but nothing broken, then J's room. I noticed the broken doorhandle/lock pieces right away. We have a 100 yr old house, with the original door handles/locks/woodwork/frames.........and J's was broken badly - and put together with scotch tape. (because apparently I wouldn't notice)
J immediately began blaming the girls, and I got on the phone to discover the truth. His door handle/lock broke when he slammed the door, and one of the girls had been hiding in my closet in my room, causing the big mess. My babysitter apologized profusely, but the damage was done.

I then grounded J for today - not for breaking the door handle/lock - but for lying about it AND trying to blame someone else for something he'd done.

So they went to bed, I watched this bizarre "Premonition" movie, and fell asleep in front of the tv. Naturally, when I got up and went to bed at 11, I could not fall asleep. Ugh. Then about 3 in the morning, I woke up to go to the bathroom and smelled something burning.
The for sale sign in our front yard was ON FIRE!!!! Luckily it's really flippin' cold - in the teens - and windy - so as I was on the phone to 911 to send a cop over (she asked if I wanted the fire truck - ummm, no!!! It's a yard sign, not a barn ) it actually burned itself to the ground and went out.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......................... ..

I got back to bed around 4, and thank God, the boys let me sleep until 7:30. We had our usual journal time, and then the phone rang. I shouldn't have answered it, I just knew it was my mother. But I did, and listened to her rant how she's in her 70s and is NOT going to change and can't she just pick up the boys and take them for a ride?????
I said no, and tried talking with her about her inability to be supportive of me & the boys, lack of trying to learn about their special needs, and finally thought, why are you even trying? She is not listening and you know it. So I finally said, "I'm not willing to discuss this with you right now" and hung up.

It got a little better after that. We had a nice talk - Sunday mornings are our "family meeting" times when we all sit on my bed and talk about what's going on in the following week, issues we're having, Q&A time, etc. J finally admitted the reason he's been nasty towards his aide is that he finally realized he's the only one in his class with an aide and he wants to be like everyone else. I ended up telling him a few things about his birthmother, which explained why he has some of the problems he does. It actually went a little better than I thought, and hopefully it'll help with the aide problems.

We got up, I started laundry, made a big breakfast........and are moving on with our day.

I'm trying not to think about what my mother will do next. My dad (they're divorced) will be here Wednesday, so we'll see what happens there. We're staying home for Thanksgiving, NOT having turkey, and just relaxing as a family. Should be fun, and totally unstressful. Yay!

Sandy

[Momtonick]

DDW~I hope you're snuggling up your little bundle in your arms right now!
Happy to hear the progress.

[Tigger2]

DDW~ What awesome progress Cameron has made in one week. Praying that the next week is as positive. As was mentioned before, one day at a time.

Missw005~ Thanks for the baby dust- need lots : ) Sorry you have had such a rough time- hope things look up next week. Hugs....

[crystalp]

Celesyee - You changed your ticker!! how is it going???

[Celesyee]

On Friday morning we got the call that birthmom was in labor. We were there prior to birth and I even spent the entire night caring for birthmom and baby. birthmom was ready to go home yesterday and even wanted us to take the baby home that night even though she couldn't sign until today at 3pm. BF came to the hospital and shortly after his visit, birthmom asked us if they can take the baby home for the night...not like we can say no.

We were supposed to meet this afternoon at 3pm to pick up the baby and birth parents sign their rights, but birthmom text messaged me saying she's seeing if she can make it work to raise the baby and needed more time. We're trying to stay positive but feel that birth parents will parent.

birthmom even gave me all of the hospital momentos, records, and gave baby our last name and BF isn't even on the birth certificate. birthmom told me he wanted a paternity test because he isn't sure if the baby is his as they have an unsteady relationship.

Well, not to loose hope but we feel that this isn't going to work out. I just wished we knew for sure what was going to happen so we can have closure and move forward.

Please pray for us and the best for Baby Jaela.

Celina

[melo]

DDW _ I'm very happy Cameron is doing better everyday, I'll be praying harder this week for the next surgery to go better than the last and hopefully after that you can finally take him home.

Celesyee_ What's going on with you and your baby? Do you have J with you? I hope the answer is yes, good luck with everything and CONGRATS!!!

Missw_ What a crazy day!! Sorry about your mother and I hope your dad it's better with your boys than her.

Greeniiiiz _ Welcome! and good luck with the sibling group, I hope you get good news soon.

Sleepy _ How's Eli doing?

HJM_ Where are you? Was the baby born on the 15? I'm dying to know what's going on.

We had our first baby shower yesterday and we received sooo much clothes I don't think I have to buy anymore until Sebastian turns 5 months old lol, it was great and we are getting so close it's unbelievable! The b-mom will go back to the doctor this week and hopefully they can tell us how far along she really is because if the baby was already 5 lbs 2 weeks ago she is either 35 weeks or we are having a huge baby boy!

[Celesyee]

Melo...we don't have Baby J. See above post.

[melo]

Celesyee_ I just saw your post, I'm soo soo sorry girl, I hope the things get better for you and the b-mom, but don't lose your faith yet , you never know, she might change her mind again and call you tomorrow asking you to go get your baby. I'll be praying for you and baby J.

[Tigger2]

Celesyee~ I can not even imagine what you are going through. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!

Melo~Sounds like you had a wonderful shower. Keep us posted when you get the due date update : )

[crystalp]

Celesyee - I'm so sorry! We'll be praying for you!