[pripaw2]

Hello,
I'm new to this site. I'm looking for some advice and some tips on what to do. I'm 19 (almost 20) and I was adopted into my family by birth mothers mother (my grandma). I grew up with my grandparents and I always thought that my grandparents were indeed my tru parents. I though that my mom was my aunt. I never knew the difference between the two. When I was about 6 years old I finally found out that my grandma was indeed my grandma and my mom was actually my mom. I was in foster care for about 3 years until my grandparents adopted me. I stayed in my family but was lied to for the logest time of why I lived with grandma and grandpa and not with my mom and my sisters. Finally through seeing a therapist I found out that my mom had given me up when I was born and that no one knew about me until a few months after I was born. My mom was thrown in jail and I was place in foster care. This past Thanksgiving I found out that I have another sister (an older one) who I did not know about. She's 25 and was placed for adoption almost the same way that I was. Except that my family knew about her. The other day my grandma asked me if I was interested in ever meeting her. I told her that I didn't know. I would have to think about it. Apparently the way that the adoption was done, I can't get the records or find out where she is. I know that she lives in the same state as I do. (Ohio) Not to far from where I grew up. The only thing I know is that she has 3 other adopted brothers and sisters. Basically I need some advice here on what to do. Where do I start and what would be a good way to approach something like this. I haven't spoke to my mother in over 3 months. She lied to me about some thigns that I had proof that she did and she continued to lie to me and basically told me that my dad did these things and she she continued to lie and blame him when I knew for a fact that it was her. She finally came clean to me in an e-mail and not when I asked her on the phone in person. I still try to talk to my sisters but it is very hard to do since we don't live close to each other but we still write to each other. I'm not sure what to do. Any hints or ideas?