[stephanieK]

My name is stephanie and I have 2 children that have been adopted and this ime of year is one of the hardest my children were adopted by a lady name lori and her son lance my childrens names are cole michael cozzone born 5\5\00 and destiney roze kilhefner born 4\21\01 they are 3 and 4 their adoption was finialized eariler this year it has been a little over a year since i hve seen them and today is a really bad day for some reason. i can seem to get past the emptieness that is in my heart i miss them so much and wish i could see them again i gave up my rights so they could have a better life and i think it was the hardest thing that i have ever done in my life. i dream about them every night and i hold the so close to my heart my bigest fear is that they will not understand why i did what i did and hate me for ever i need people to talk to and hope that their is some one out their who understands and can be my friend and talk to me because i have no one in my life that understands how i feel some days the pain is so deep that i dont know if i can go on like this and then i try to rember that one day god willing i will see them again i did call them often but the adopted mother disconected her phone so now i worrie like crazy and dont have any way to contact them if you can relate or have any hope for me please respond

[Leigh131313]

If this is an honest plea for a friendly ear, you may want to go to the birthparent section.
leigh

[mommytobug]

where are you............................................... ..............

[BrandyHagz]

False alarm

This is a legit poster...

[BrandyHagz]

Stephanie,

Unfortunately, this forum has been plagued by an imposter for the last two years…one of her biggest calling cards is posting whoa is me stories on the General Adoption Parent Support forum…which is why you may not have received the support you so desperately seek.

You might consider reposting your thread over on the Birthparent Support Forum for more advice from birthparents.

I’m sure, at any rate, our wonderful members will step up and offer any kind of support they can.

[mommytobug]

Can you tell us how you handled the adoption...........attorney, agency, etc. There may be a way for you to write to teh adoptive mother. Many many people are so afraid of open adoption but things are changing.........thank God!! I was working with a lady a few years ago ( I am a therapist and adoptive mommy) Anyway, she too worried. I strongly encouraged her to write a letter to the son she had placed years ago to put in his file at the agency. Well, he wrote to her!! He too was looking................and he is not 18. I felt so good and she at last had peace..............My heart goes to you. Adoption is tough...........and even tougher when you know nothing..........

[mj77]

I'm so sorry for your situation. I honestly can only imagine what you have gone through, but I think it was such an act of love. I am not sure why she would disconnect her phone. My best guess, speaking of an adoptive mom myself, is that she too may have started going through a difficult time and having so much contact in the begining might have possibly made her feel like less of a mom to the kids--it's just a guess. I know with my second son, it took a LOT longer to bond with him because I was constantly reminded I wasn't his only mother. It WASN'T about me not being able to deal with him having a first mother/ bmom, it was that I wasn't able to totally claim him with the family not giving me some space. I am not sure this is this amom's feelings. You probably know better than I. Like I said, it's just a guess.

I am sorry though that this family isn't letting you in to know about your children. I know this time of the year can be so difficult. I hope and pray something will change for you, that your kids will be told of your undying love for them and someday soon you might be able to meet again. Take care.

[KellyStacy]

I cannot begin to imagine what you are going through.However,I am on the other side hoping to adopt a child someday.All I can say is you did what you thought was best for your children.The greatest gift you gave those children was life! Adoption is an extremely emotional process.It is only natural you miss your children so much. You know in your heart that love will never end.I hope you will be able to get in contact with the adoptive mom.An adoptive mom should very much understand and respect your wishes to atleast let you know the children are ok.You posted you gave up your rights so they could have a better life and for doing that you are a very extremely courageous and loving mom.You only wanted the best for your children.I will pray things will work out for you.I wish you could find some peace and I wish I could find the right words to comfort you.I cannot pretend to begin to understand because I have never been in your position.I can tell you if not for birthmoms like yourself couples like myself and many,many others out there could never expereince the joy of loving and caring for children.I respect you and your decision and just know there are many birthmoms out there feeling the same way you do.I thank God for birthmom's like you who only want what is best for their children.God Bless