[toni7]

I am sure many of you can relate!!! Today it's raining and I believe this is adding to my heart ache of sitting in an empty nursery, scanning the web site for an available child! Maybe it's not just the rain, but my neighbor and good friend who just brought home her beautiful baby boy from the hospital or the many calls from friends who have called to share their good news "we're pregnant"!!!; or maybe it's the Holidays and believing we would be blessed with a child for Christmas... I've learned many lessons and the most important, we do not deserve to parents just because we want it so bad - but it still hurts - how do we deal??? I don't know but today is just a day where I want to crawl up and vegetate and not think about anything. Not look at the nursery or sit around and make nice with my friends and their kids - today is not a good day, but I know tomorrow will be. Sorry to vent, but It hurts to want something so bad and not understand why your turn is not now... It's like the proverb says "Hope deferred makes the Heart sick” Thanks for letting me vent - now I am off to entertain our friends and their two beautiful children...

[dl]

Just wanted to say I'm sorry you were having such a difficult day. The holidays sometimes cause us to focus on what we don't have and it is a sad, painful and lonely feeling. The fact that we are expected to be totally happy and joyous makes it so frustrating at times.

Hopefully a child that is in need of loving parents and a home will find their way to you soon.

Take care ~

[JaelynElise]

I am sorry you are hurting, but trust me, you are NOT alone! I keep reading the Guat adoption forum, and seeing all the beautiful babies posted in pictures that people are bringing home (even though they waited an eternity to get to that point).

I think about having a baby in my arms day and night. The only shows I watch are "Adoption Story" and "Birth Day" and "Special Delivery". We have prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed. Everyone says it will happen in "God's time", but what if "God's time" is "never"? I couldn't bare that.

My prayers go out to you during your empty, painful waiting, but please know you are not alone!

[jlbl4902]

I can totally relate. I thought for sure we would have a baby this by this time. My sister-in-law is pg with her second baby and 4 of the gals I work with are too. even all of our friends seem to have just had a baby too. some days are soo much harder then others. We just have to have faith that it will be us someday. i hope for all of oursakes that it is sooner rather then later.
good luck!!!

[toni7]

Thank each of you for taking time out to reply... Sometimes it helps just to be heard. I hope all our waitng will soon end...

[amom4life]

Originally posted by toni7
Thank each of you for taking time out to reply... Sometimes it helps just to be heard. I hope all our waitng will soon end...

AMEN!!"

[Support2Adopt]

{{{toni}}}
Although the holidays can be a magical time, I think that sometimes it causes us to miss loved ones not in our lives, (including children of ours to be.) It's normal to feel as you do.
Maybe it won't happen by this holiday season, but try to think ahead to next year with hope that next holiday season, you'll have that child that you've been dreaming of.
JJ