[dlwilliams]

I was adopted at birth and have grown up knowing that (I'm 40 now). It wasn't until recently when I had to take my son to a hospital for a pschyc eval and he was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder that I started realizing some strange fears I've always had and have just developed in the last few years. One of them is abandonment. I didn't know what I'd been feeling all these years was a fear of being abandoned. I was so affraid my first husband and my second husbands would eventually give up on me and leave that I made their lives unbearable to the point that they both asked me to leave (go figure). I have remarried and even though I still have those fleeting moments of fear my current husband will talk me through it. He's my biggest fan and biggest support.