[Barbie Annza]

I was adopted at the age of 8 after two years of living withmy adoptive family. But it was the beginning that was the worst. I remember hating everything about the way I lived and was treated.

To start at the beginning, my father died when I was still an infant and my mother did not have the emotional strength to take care of three baby girls.

I was repeatedly molested in foster care and I was neglected daily. I tried to get out many times but no one wanted me and no one cared. My DCF worker never came by and didn't listen when I told her about the sexual abuse.

Things were real bad for me, but then I was adopted. I do not think it really ever got better for me. I never felt loved and my adoptive family was physically abusive. Now I'm married and wanting to start a family. But I can't get rid of the nightmares that haunt me from all those years.

I hope that someone out there who has similiar problems might be able to give me advice and help me to move on to a new chapter in my life. Oh, by the way, this story has a happy ending. I found my birth family and am seeing them regularly.

[BRANDI18DAYBELL]

Hi my name is Brandi i was placed in to foster care at the age of 4 tilli was seventeen i finally found a family after going through 21 homes...i was rapped repeadtly so i know what ur going threw only i nvr told ne one till 4 yrs later .....its hard to over come the hard times in you life. I found strength in writing singin and dont laugh but tlkin about these things with a counsaler belive i hated to talk about the past really it honestly works it hard to talk about them but eventuallu it just comes right out its like becoming a whole new person ....ull also find that its easier to have one really good friend u cant talk to about these things to cuz once u become an adult like me ur on ur own and life hurts when u dont resolve what hurts ..i hope the best for you evrything will b ok

[bromanchik]

Talking to a therapist that specializes in trauma would really help. There are physiological reasons for your reactions. A therapist can help you understand and process it.