[ANNWILL]

The only thing is that I wish that I would of got an attorney sooner. Nobody told us that we could get one but the onyl thing is that we are considered third party and it's up to the courts if they will allow them to say anything-like ours she has been which she said is they usually don't let them but I guess in this case... and of course the money that we're probally going to owe her. I am so glad that I got this little girl but I definitely know that we will NOT do this again. Our hearts hurt too much and to see how these courts work... and also the agencies. Yours sounds just like ours except they didn't give yours back-yet. I just have to pray that this year is going to be our year-she WILL be back and will be ours FOR GOOD! We have to pray and I will for yours

[ANNWILL]

Well here's the latest for everyone. We found out that mom is in a home for battered women (if she was battered-who knows). CSB called me to let me know that her husband told them that she tried to run him over while he was walking-I hope the kids were not with her. Why he didn't file a report to the police who knows-he's as crazy as she is. He also told them that she's on drugs. Great that's all that this little girl needs to see. CSB is not going to do anything about this. Also found out for the appeal. they did NOT even file a brief, they thought that they had nothing to fight for-come on, what about the best interest of the child? These people do not care about these kids. All I do everyday and night is pray that this little one comes home to us before something happens to her. In three months look what's happened to her already. She had so much stability with us and now... I have written to the head of the foster parent association and hopefully I'll get to talk to someone to see if there is something we can do to get her back. I sometimes feel that I just can't go on with my life if I can't have her. I need my life back and she is my life

[JJemail1]

Annwill,

Call child services anonymously and tell them of the cummulative happenings over the past months (police visit to home, violent behavior from mom, drug allegation). All of these things constitue abuse and potentially jeopardize the child(ren). They may not listen to you as the former foster parent but if you call anonymously I bet they will investigate investigate.

Jennifer

[ANNWILL]

Jennifer,

Hate to tell you this is but our home finder called me and told me these things. Then I have CASA calling me and telling me things too so I let my lawyer and my home finder these too. From what I found out is as long as they are in the home where battered women go these children are not in any emminent danger. They only keep them for 30 days and I guess they find a place for them to live but they watch them for now and if she doesnt find a place then they will kick her out and will call CSB to get the kids. I wish she would of hit this man then she would of been in jail and our little one would be home. She has got to do something... soon

[JSAUNTIE]

We are looking at a simular situation with our nephew my BIL has a founded case of sexual abuse and he was in jail for beating the kids and they are wanting to start home visits with this man I am just livid I have made calls to get a lawyer he has been in care and with us for 14 1/2 months and MOM has left him so he will be left in a home with a childmolester to be sexually and physically abused I just cant do this anymore I want to scream are you people stupid DUHHHHHH I just dont know what to do any more I just want this baby taken care of I want them to look out for his best intrest. I want him to grow into a happy healthy Man. Not a screwed up mess like his father.

[ANNWILL]

I know excatly what you mean. Something inside of me just wants to fight for this little one. If she was going to a good home-fine but she's in a wacko place and with a wacko person. But all we do is pray for her to come back home and to have the appeals courts see the same thing. She has GOT to come home

[ANNWILL]

just to let everyone know the latest. My husband called the other caseworker to "break the ice" to see how our little one is. Well she told him that she is "ok". She said that things are going on that she can't tell him but what she did say is to keep our license. To me that means she is NOT doing good with her and also something is going on. We knew we were going to keep our license but we have got to get her away from that wacko before her little brain goes wacko. Also we got a copy of her lawyers brief and in it she says that the courts did their job that there is no need to have the best interest because that's where she is. All she has in there was mom did this and this (lies) this has NOTHING to do with mom its about this little girl. I pray to god that she comes back soon and besides this week is going to be so depressing since her birthday is this week. She won't have the birthdays shes used to. Please dear GOD bring her home soon-let the courts see that she belongs back with us

[jjjjmom]

We will continue to pray for your little baby girl to come home to her mommy and daddy where she belongs.

[ANNWILL]

Thank you so much for your support. With all of the prayers that God receives I have to belive that she's coming home

[ANNWILL]

Right now I just don't know where to turn. I looked on the internet to look at the public access records of our case and I started to get nervous because the court date is coming. I called my lawyer and so as of now she hasn't called me back. I called our homefinder to see if she found out where our little one is and she said that the caseworker didn't tell her anything. Ours told her that we were kind of upset because of the way she treated us. Well she said the same thing to her as she told us-keep our license. It just makes us go crazy because we don't know where she is now. Yesterday was her birthday and I just lost it and plus today. I miss her so much. I want her back. I pray that our lawyer will be able to speak at the appeals-that's what I have to ask her. I pray to God that she comes back and that the appeals court sees the same. I wish someone was here that I could cry to. I know it's a cop out but I go on with my life without this little girl. We raised her from an infant to 4-1/2 years old.

[bethy724]

Why wasn't she taken back into custody when the violence occured in the home? Is she in a battered shelter w/ mom or home w/ stepdad? Have you had contact w/ bio mom ? Can you offer to take her back? I'd call the news at this point. She is now being abused by the system.

[JSAUNTIE]

Anna I am praying hard for this little angel and that she comes back to you. We are starting supervised homevisits with the molesting, child beating, sicko tomarrow. He thought he was going to get the baby back last week in court even had his camera handy. But all that happened was the judge made him look like an idiot. Then he called his lawyer and threatened to kill her this week because she didnt get his son back for him. So now we have to take our sweet baby to this mans home who likes to make death threats. If I thought they wouldnt come get him I would refuse because of safety reasons. My CW is working overtime to try to get this visit stopped tomarrow and only do visits at the office pray for us as well.

[ANNWILL]

At least you caseworker is fighting for you-ours just wanted to have this case over-guess what-it's not! Doesn't anybody realize what is better for this little girl? Doesn't anybody see that she's better off with us? She NEVER had to hear anybody raise their voice, move around, god knows what else she's been through? My heart hurts so much. Sometimes I just don't want to go on anymore. My life is so empty without her. All I do is cry for her. Do you think her mother ever cried-heck no! Remember all she is is a piece of property. But to us she's more-she's our little girl. I just wish I knew where she is now so it could ease our mind. God knows just how much we love her-please let her come home-please

[Luvbeingmommy]

I know you are in pain and your heart is aching. I just wanted to remind you that you have to take care of yourself before you can take care of this little one. You have to have the strength to care for her if she does come back to you, because she will need you more than she did previously.
I can only imagine how you must be feeling, and pray that this angel comes home to you. Foster care is the hardest thing I have ever done, and on more than one occasion I thought that bdad (very scary guy) was gonna get custody of A2. Her adoption was finalized in September 2004. Then with the boys --- long story, but I adopted them last September (2007). (September is a good month!)
I know it is hard to see it, but God is still in control and truly has this child's best interest. My prayers are with you all.

[abbeyroad]

I am so sorry you're going through this and I pray you get your daughter back soon. You and your husband provided a loving, nurturing, stable environment for her for almost 5 years! I know you're hurting...have you thought about seeing a counselor? (please don't be offended, just a suggestion)