[JSAUNTIE]

Just checking on you sweety have you heard anything anything at all. I have been praying for you so hard. I know you may think I am nuts but we had court this week and I was thinking of you as soon as it was over I thought I wonder if you had heard anything. I am no longer a foster parent my little license went back as soon as I called today we won in court and got guardainship. And I no longer can handle this system. I will be thinking of you everyday till we hear from you. Prayers too!!!!

[hopingtoadoptnWV]

I just read through this entire thread and there were times when I cried. I will be praying for your family and that poor little girl.
I sincerely hope she comes back to you. What sort of woman is her mother that she can do all of this to her and those other children? How awful.

God Bless!

[ATXMOM]

I just read your whole story and am sitting here crying like a baby over it. I can't believe something like this can even happen. This system needs to be fixed. It sounds like you have a lot of fight in you. I will pray for you every day until your little girl comes home. I am also sending your story to my friends that I know will pray for you. More prayers can't hurt. I will be glued to this site until this whole thing is over.
This story is so disturbing I can tell I will not be sleeping tonight. Why does it seam like no one cares for these kids except for us, the foster parents, and we get treated like trash for it. They tell you to love the kids like they are your own, but when you express an emotion for them when the kids are taken away and put back into a dangerous situation, everyone acts like you are crazy for caring!!
When they gave my twins back to their mom I asked the social worker if she would give them back to us when they come back into care. She looked at me as if no one had ever asked her that question before and shrugged her shoulders at me. Then she mumbled I don't know I'll see. I told my CW with the agency I am working through and she said she would make sure I will be the first to know. I only had my twins for 6 weeks and I felt like I was going to loose my mind when they took them away. I can't imagine what you are going through.

You will be in my constant prayers.

[ANNWILL]

Well everyone thank you for all of your prayers, we sure as heck need them. As of today, 4 1/2 weeks we still have heard NOTHING. We cannot believe this. Also we have found out that the cops that csb is putting on her had been changed AGAIN-now its not until July 24th. I don't understand what cops is I do know it stands for court appointed protective services but I don't know what that means unless someone could tell me. All I do know is this waiting is killing all of us. We've got to get her back. The other night I had a melt-down and started crying for her-I miss her so much-I asked my husband again to take the pain away but he understands and he says he cries for her and prays everyday.

[goodymom]

I just listened to a podcast that is really encouraging. It is on the Infertility Podcast website. The current interview is with a woman who adopted out of the foster care system. Sometimes it helps to hear someone else's story so we don't feel alone. I have prayed for you annwill.

[ANNWILL]

I also forgot to tell you I talked to someone and had told them about how our little ones sister's foster parents won't talk to us and she said she wouldn't put it past csb to tell them not to talk to us and not to get involved with us-I think that is really nice

[ANNWILL]

As of today we still haven't heard ANYTHING! NOTHING! (7 weeks and counting)

[JSAUNTIE]

Well sweetie I am still praying for you is there anyway you can check online to see the status of your case. I have heard of that being done I think it is under your state and appeals cases. I am not sure if you have this in your state but I would be checking.

[ANNWILL]

by the time it goes on-line we would find out first. But I do check anyway. Talked to CASA yesterday and her sisters hearing for permanent custody which was supposed to be this month now has been changed to July 22-two days before COPS is to be on our little one-I just wonder what COPS does. If anyone knows... all I do know is that it stands for court ordered protective services.

[henderfive]

Hello Annwill,
Still in my prayers. Hope things are going to end soon and your baby will finally be where she belongs with you. The only thing I know about cops is they are sent by the caseworker to investigate abuse or neglect that maybe happening to someone that cannot report it themselves such as your little girl. Why they are waiting so long to have this done is beyond me. Another reason this is done is if the parents are hard to locate so the caseworker cannot do there job. Do they know where she is now? Is she still moving around? Thanks for keeping us updated. There is alot of people praying for you. Keep the faith and hang in there.
Henderfive

[ANNWILL]

My husband and I really appreciate all the prayers that everyone has been giving us but I hate to give you all bad news. I looked on-line and found out that the appeals court sided with mom's attorney. We lost our case. I don't know what to do now. I feel so lost. I feel like I let our little one down AGAIN even though it was the courts. We're waiting for our attorney to get back with us to see what's next or is this the end? We know next month the COPS will be on her but.... I thought I would be numb about this news since that's all we ever get but I had the worse crying spell ever. I don't know if I should take down ALL of her stuff or what. I just can't believe that witch won AGAIN. What ever happened to good prevails over evil? What happened to God listens to prayers? I can't understand this. Someone please help us. I feel like my life is gone again. All my hopes and dreams are gone in the wind. Someone help us!!!

[MassachusettsMom]

My heart breaks for you. It really does. We are in the process of loosing our FS to a birthhome that DSS, the attys, even the judge has said is unsafe... but they are sending him back anyway. We took him as a "low legal risk" placement (I now know there is no such thing) and never imagined this would happen. We're calling in all sorts of favors in an attempt to find a way to keep him safe... but the bottom line is that sometimes what is in the child's best interest is not the top priority (the judge on our case actually said that). I don't know what one is supposed to do in a situation like yours except keep fighting. But I wonder if there are bigger issues going on that need to be tackled: big-picture reform. I'm not sure how to go about that or whether it would serve to help your little girl... but we're going to be trying to figure out who we need to call or write or lobby to make some more changes in the system. Perhaps you have some insight on how to do that.

Thinking of you...

[ANNWILL]

Right now all I know that this is the end of our ropes. There is no mroe appeals. I am waiting for my lawyer to call me back on what they based their opinion on-why they wouldn't overturn it. I just cannot believe this. All I do know is that we will keep our license going but to take children again-doubt it. MY husband is hurting so much and won't admit it because he is trying to be strong for me. He went out last night and pulled weeds to relieve tension. That little girl was and will always be our little girl. I know next month they have COPS on her but still.... Even though deep down I down want any harm to her I want something to happen to her so she will come back- I know that is mean but my love for her is so strong. I may not of given birth to her but after all these years it's so hard not to feel this way. We did talk about adopting older kids so we might do that but I will let you know what our lawyer says-thank you for your prayers. I guess the best interest of the child does not matter it's all the parents no matter how mad they treated these kids it's all them. Like ours with her battered little body at 5 weeks old and now .... UGH!!!!

[athikers]

I am so sorry... I know this has been extremely difficult for you.

[Kat-L]

Originally Posted by ANNWILL

. What ever happened to good prevails over evil? What happened to God listens to prayers? I can't understand this. Someone please help us. I feel like my life is gone again. All my hopes and dreams are gone in the wind. Someone help us!!!

God IS listening. There have been times in my life when I think "This can't possibly be God's will. He would NEVER will this to happen!!! It makes no sense". When going through the pain, it's hard to see what God's will even is. All you can do is lean on Him and cry. He doesn't ask us to understand-we can't understand. We can only trust in His love for you, His love for this little girl and His promise to carry you through this grief and loneliness. God loves you, Annwill. He knows how badly you are hurting. Let Him help you. He'll carry this burden for you so you can be free of it. Ask Him to shoulder this pain for awhile so you can take a break. He loves this little girl even more than you love her. Trust Him. ***hugs***