[sgtfirstwife]

We have set a visit to see my precious little boys and I am sitting here crying. They have been gone for nearly two months and I miss them so. The court ordered visitatiion for us and after a lot of vacation we finally have made arrangements for a visit. For some reason it makes me so sad. I guess for one thing, I know we will be moving soon and have to leave them behind. I want to see them just one more time, like a goodbye visit for us. We can have more visits after this, but not sure if I can handle it or not. I hope this all makes sense. I don't know why I am so sad.
Thanks for listening to me.

[DreamingAzure]

((((hugs))))

[athikers]

I have only seen my little Teeter once since he left us a year ago. I kept it together the whole visit, then the minute I turned my back on him and family to go I was in tears for hours. It is a very strange experience to see a child you always expected to be yours being parented by someone else... and to be on the outside looking in.

This has happened to our family twice (thinking/being told we could adopt), with our first placement (M & D) and with Teeter... I will say it has given me a lot of understanding of what it must feel like for the bios to see ME with their child day after day.

[Mkap]

I spoke with the stepmom of ffd the other night and I heard ffd in the background. The moment I got off the phone I cried. Just hearing her voice tore my heart out. I know why you're sad.